been ages since i updated.

i finally feel my life is complete. (:
bcos i have all these things.


want to upload fotos but its bloody crazy!!
i dono wat's wrong but its fcukin slow.

workin is tiring!
but still there's sense of enjoyment when u see the customers walk out hundred dollars lighter.


but oh well.
i still love my life.


and
ur dog. (:
HE's one adorable cute dog that hugs you tight.
amifallininlovewifyou
gotta slp now.



byebye loves

here are some the photos!
my uni frens!!!





my bro and sis are really adorable. (:

pretty missy 1:45 AMY

goin to sleep after writing this post.
jus some thots that had occurred all over these weeks.


i'm sorry.
sorry for everything.
sorry for promising u and doin that.

im really suffocating here. everyone is so freaking smart
i gt back my test and its nt good at all.
my gpa is falling way beyond wat i expected.

i need to mug.
and i am sorry that i agreed w/o thinking.

i jus cancelled date on one of my frens again.
ms choo i am really sorry.


oh man.

i am really very stressed here.
so i find that i whine and complain alot?
but alas when i whine

frenship sour?

if only u know i cried over this for so many times
losin your frenship has really been very traumatic.

but u don know. and i dono how to express it in words.


for the whole of today.
i was feelin very guilty.
sorry for nt accompanyin you.



wat the fuck am i doin?
at this rate maybe thats why my frens are diminishing and


i'm crumbling.
if only you know.


i jus wan things back to the past.
but it's nt possible.

bitterswt emotion. (:

pretty missy 2:14 AMY

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

pretty missy 2:08 AMY

suddenly it's like, i dono wat to blog abt.

so many many things have happened.
2009 is already 2mths old. and frankly speaking, i am nt realli enjoying it.

to think in 2008 i was happily busying myself with frens and so many fun stuffs.
jap.tuition.piano.

to many it may seem like a chore, but to me it was wonderful.
i had my flexible schedule and was still rakin in the money.
everything was fine. no. perfect

but i guess things don last.
in the end i am still alone out there.

but i really did try my best. but oh well. it's really too late to change everything.

may time heal it all. (:
good luck/bye my dearest fren.

love was in the air recently. and i can't believe i spend my vday at home sleeping.
i seriousli need to get a life.

been so freakin busy wif my hall stuffs. cheerleading, special production and wat nots.

and i don think i can stay in hall next yr. cos i do too little.
seriousli. to think i did alot.

and there's so much in ntu dat i am so unsure abt.
sometimes i do wonder whether i am doin de right thing by goin here.

but where else could i go/do?


exams are coming. i am damn damn worried over my gpa.
it's falling like mad.
when i get 80/100, it usually means ten thousands are getting 100/100

can u see de freaking difference??
omg.
why oh why am in here?

i seriousli have no idea.


and on side note, i can't believe i am playing board games competition tml.


-love is really in the air,
u jus need to feel it. (:

i miss all my frens. (:
bengyan.fateha.nitka. u are the top 3 lists la!!!
when are we freakin meeting???

pretty missy 1:36 AMY

i am seriously at a loss. suddenly there's this invisible barrier surroundin me
makin me unable to reach out to everyone.

i dono how it takes to break it away, but all i know is that,
i am really tryin my best.

but it's jus nt working.

i feel more lost and confused than ever in jc.Alevels cos at least durin that time, i still have you guys beside me.

i still have my frens. the one that stuck by me.
but now i ain't so sure.

it suddenly feels like i am being left out
or i am walkin too fast such that i am walkin along this road.

i tried to make new frens in this journey.
but i guess it's jus nt the same.

we have the bonds already. from all those past yrs. now it's so weird to nt see each other.
i guess the msg overall is

i realli do miss you my frens.

and i think i am losin my identity.
oh crap. watever.

pretty missy 3:49 PMY

it's de 2009 already!!
oh my.

times simply flew by.
this 2008 has been so so fulfilling and in a happy sort of way.
it's nt stressful like in 2007 where i had to deal wif loads of stupid shit and yet yet do my As.


2008 was really my year.
i did loads and loads of stuff.
but i also had my failure. HAHAHA.

but overall i am quite happy.
except i did faced hesitation in entering ntu. and stayin in my course.
up till now i am still wondering whether i have made the correct choice anot.

oh well i shall let nature take its own course.

meanwhile i am damn damn damn astonished over my grades for this sem.
oh my!

didn't expect it AT ALL.
i thot the power of moderation would be a bad factor but i think it actually helped me.
WOW.

i have to say,
yiqi's computing grades rocks!! HAHAHA.


and this new yr marks another anniversary for my dearest fren BF.
thank you for havin her another yr. HAHAHA.
pls have her for the rest of the yrs. jus let me borrow her whenever i wanna eat frog leg porridge. HAHA.

to think 3 yrs ago i wrote that post.
http://reckless-reality.blogspot.com/2006/01/im-starting-skool-ahh.html

major WOW.
my writings were dat childish.
and i was deeply in love.

3yrs changed alot.

i gt myself a rhinestone sandals to replace my havianas!!
cos it fell into the bloody river.
omfg. such a thing happened????

i am still buyin myself a pair of havianas. i need it la.
on a side note. i hate uploadin fotos here.
everything shall be at fb.

if u can't see it. den too bad liao. HAHA.
dat reminds me.
my thumbdrive burned.

why do ALL the weird things happen to me??????

i seriousli think i am very very jia lat.
oh well.
life goes on.
HAHAHAHA.

rhinestone sandals anyone?
i wanna sell dem sia.

pretty missy 4:04 PMY

juan bdae. ((:

happy19th yrs old!!


gal, though i am at boonlay u can still talk to me and ask me out.
i realli realli will come down.
pls don't bcos of distance u decide to not call me.



i still need u jus the same as one year ago.
and of cos i still love u as much. (:



happy bdae my dearest woman,

who have a role in every single thing in things we compliment.
who loves to show case her talent and yet come up nth and jus make us laugh
who stops at nth to show she own de bloody SBS, TAMPINES MALL.LJS. and etc.
who acts as my personal assistance in times of need.
who lets me cried at her shoulder when i couldn't stand it.
who continues to prove to me that she has thousands of sports car at home and rented it all out
who needs to find a charming bf to take care of her

and lastly,
who happens to be my very very very best fren. (:


don ever forget you still have me okay?
call me out often!!


loves,
yiqi


we have matured over the ages.

may we still sip tea together when we are old wif grandchildren.
OMG. dat will be freakin old.

pretty missy 10:41 PMY

shld i continue on this road? or still continue trying?
rejection isn't smth that is nice.

i realli don like wat i am doin but it looks like there isn't anything i can do abt it?

i'm so so confused. i don't like it at all.
this is worse dan jc.

where are u when i need u?
i think i still miss and want you alot.
at least u can put a smile on my face.

oh man.

pretty missy 9:50 PMY

yiqii
thirteenAug
frens surround her.
prim+proper tuition teacher
childish yet knowledgeable =)

love or hate me.
it's a difficult choice.





slackin
readin
movies
shopping.shoes&bags
talkin on de fone
kkg




Venice.Bangkok.Bintan
A'level cert wif THE grades
nbs
gucci bag
coach wristlet
wardrobe of clothes
mastered Japanese language
2nd upper class
learnt piano
driving license









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