-Realityy ishx heree.

2009-11-17T13:34:00.002+08:00

i love you.

every breath you take.
every single day
every word you said

every move you make
every vowel you break
every smile you fake
every claim you stake

i will be watching you

baby baby baby please
you belong to me.

oh cant u see?
you belong to me.
i will pull all ways
for every step you take.

every move you make
every vowel you break
every smile you fake
very claim you stake
i will be watching you

lyrics adopted from: every breath you take- the police

pig i love you.
i shall see you on thur or fri.

hope i shall be able to pass LA!
muacks. (:

2009-06-25T01:45:00.003+08:00

been ages since i updated.

i finally feel my life is complete. (:
bcos i have all these things.

want to upload fotos but its bloody crazy!!
i dono wat's wrong but its fcukin slow.

workin is tiring!
but still there's sense of enjoyment when u see the customers walk out hundred dollars lighter.

but oh well.
i still love my life.

and
ur dog. (:
HE's one adorable cute dog that hugs you tight.
amifallininlovewifyou
gotta slp now.

byebye loves

here are some the photos!
my uni frens!!!

my bro and sis are really adorable. (:

okie gotta sleep now.

morning shift tml!

2009-03-24T02:14:00.004+08:00

goin to sleep after writing this post.
jus some thots that had occurred all over these weeks.

i'm sorry.
sorry for everything.
sorry for promising u and doin that.

im really suffocating here. everyone is so freaking smart
i gt back my test and its nt good at all.
my gpa is falling way beyond wat i expected.

i need to mug.
and i am sorry that i agreed w/o thinking.

i jus cancelled date on one of my frens again.
ms choo i am really sorry.

oh man.

i am really very stressed here.
so i find that i whine and complain alot?
but alas when i whine

frenship sour?

if only u know i cried over this for so many times
losin your frenship has really been very traumatic.

but u don know. and i dono how to express it in words.

for the whole of today.
i was feelin very guilty.
sorry for nt accompanyin you.

wat the fuck am i doin?
at this rate maybe thats why my frens are diminishing and

i'm crumbling.
if only you know.

i jus wan things back to the past.
but it's nt possible.

bitterswt emotion. (:

2009-02-22T02:08:00.001+08:00

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

2009-02-21T01:36:00.004+08:00

suddenly it's like, i dono wat to blog abt.

so many many things have happened.
2009 is already 2mths old. and frankly speaking, i am nt realli enjoying it.

to think in 2008 i was happily busying myself with frens and so many fun stuffs.
jap.tuition.piano.

to many it may seem like a chore, but to me it was wonderful.
i had my flexible schedule and was still rakin in the money.
everything was ~~fine.~~ no. perfect

but i guess things don last.
in the end i am still alone out there.

but i really did try my best. but oh well. it's really too late to change everything.

may time heal it all. (:
good luck/bye my dearest fren.

love was in the air recently. and i can't believe i spend my vday at home sleeping.
i seriousli need to get a life.

been so freakin busy wif my hall stuffs. cheerleading, special production and wat nots.

and i don think i can stay in hall next yr. cos i do too little.
seriousli. to think i did alot.

and there's so much in ntu dat i am so unsure abt.
sometimes i do wonder whether i am doin de right thing by goin here.

but where else could i go/do?

exams are coming. i am damn damn worried over my gpa.
it's falling like mad.
when i get 80/100, it usually means ten thousands are getting 100/100

can u see de freaking difference??
omg.
why oh why am in here?

i seriousli have no idea.

and on side note, i can't believe i am playing board games competition tml.

-love is really in the air,
u jus need to feel it. (:

i miss all my frens. (:
bengyan.fateha.nitka. u are the top 3 lists la!!!
when are we freakin meeting???

2009-02-04T15:49:00.002+08:00

i am seriously at a loss. suddenly there's this invisible barrier surroundin me
makin me unable to reach out to everyone.

i dono how it takes to break it away, but all i know is that,
i am really tryin my best.

but it's jus nt working.

i feel more lost and confused than ever in jc.Alevels cos at least durin that time, i still have you guys beside me.

i still have my frens. the one that stuck by me.
but now i ain't so sure.

it suddenly feels like i am being left out
or i am walkin too fast such that i am walkin along this road.

i tried to make new frens in this journey.
but i guess it's jus nt the same.

we have the bonds already. from all those past yrs. now it's so weird to nt see each other.
i guess the msg overall is

i realli do miss you my frens.

and i think i am losin my identity.
oh crap. watever.

2009-01-03T16:04:00.003+08:00

it's de 2009 already!!
oh my.

times simply flew by.
this 2008 has been so so fulfilling and in a happy sort of way.
it's nt stressful like in 2007 where i had to deal wif loads of stupid shit and yet yet do my As.

2008 was really my year.
i did loads and loads of stuff.
but i also had my failure. HAHAHA.

but overall i am quite happy.
except i did faced hesitation in entering ntu. and stayin in my course.
up till now i am still wondering whether i have made the correct choice anot.

oh well i shall let nature take its own course.

meanwhile i am damn damn damn astonished over my grades for this sem.
oh my!

didn't expect it AT ALL.
i thot the power of moderation would be a bad factor but i think it actually helped me.
WOW.

i have to say,
yiqi's computing grades rocks!! HAHAHA.

and this new yr marks another anniversary for my dearest fren BF.
thank you for havin her another yr. HAHAHA.
pls have her for the rest of the yrs. jus let me borrow her whenever i wanna eat frog leg porridge. HAHA.

to think 3 yrs ago i wrote that post.
http://reckless-reality.blogspot.com/2006/01/im-starting-skool-ahh.html

major WOW.
my writings were dat childish.
and i was deeply in love.

3yrs changed alot.

i gt myself a rhinestone sandals to replace my havianas!!
cos it fell into the bloody river.
omfg. such a thing happened????

i am still buyin myself a pair of havianas. i need it la.
on a side note. i hate uploadin fotos here.
everything shall be at fb.

if u can't see it. den too bad liao. HAHA.
dat reminds me.
my thumbdrive burned.

why do ALL the weird things happen to me??????

i seriousli think i am very very jia lat.
oh well.
life goes on.
HAHAHAHA.

rhinestone sandals anyone?
i wanna sell dem sia.

2008-12-23T22:41:00.001+08:00

juan bdae. ((:

happy19th yrs old!!

gal, though i am at boonlay u can still talk to me and ask me out.
i realli realli will come down.
pls don't bcos of distance u decide to not call me.

i still need u jus the same as one year ago.
and of cos i still love u as much. (:

happy bdae my dearest woman,

who have a role in every single thing in things we compliment.
who loves to show case her talent and yet come up nth and jus make us laugh
who stops at nth to show she own de bloody SBS, TAMPINES MALL.LJS. and etc.
who acts as my personal assistance in times of need.
who lets me cried at her shoulder when i couldn't stand it.
who continues to prove to me that she has thousands of sports car at home and rented it all out
who needs to find a charming bf to take care of her

and lastly,
who happens to be my very very very best fren. (:

don ever forget you still have me okay?
call me out often!!

loves,
yiqi

we have matured over the ages.

may we still sip tea together when we are old wif grandchildren.
OMG. dat will be freakin old.

2008-12-23T21:50:00.004+08:00

shld i continue on this road? or still continue trying?
rejection isn't smth that is nice.

i realli don like wat i am doin but it looks like there isn't anything i can do abt it?

i'm so so confused. i don't like it at all.
this is worse dan jc.

where are u when i need u?
i think i still miss and want you alot.
at least u can put a smile on my face.

oh man.

2008-12-15T09:38:00.001+08:00

omg i am so screwed up. arrgh!
i am so so so so worried now.

i guess i don't belong at all.

nt even a phonecall or sms.
wat was/am i thinking?

praying hard that everything will turn out alright?

i am so so screwed.

2008-11-12T20:41:00.003+08:00

so so bored. was/ AM supposed to mug now!! omg omg.

but i am doin wat i can jus nt to see that HUGE.ENORMOUS.GIGANTIC pile of notes.
am seriousli debating nitx suggestion.

dance belly dancing so that the china boys will be distracted and fail their papers.
de china gals wld be jealous that their bfs are looking at pretty gals and fail theirs too.

as for spore guys and girls u can do as well for i care, cos we are roughly ard there.
okie maybe u are smarter than me but at least i won't be at the EXTREME lower end of the bell curve.

oh man,
wat am i doin and thinking???
i think ntu is making me crazy. and nitx is making use of my fragile mind to psycho me doin these things.

she's also crazy.
great everyone is crazy.

faa are u??
u are de only sanest ppl. (if there's such a word)
at least u get to go to the beach. *sniff sniff

it's 8.48pm. i am still in ntu.
where is my dad?
i wanna go home.
i hate dis place.

give me tpjc anytime. or best don give me anything,
make me rich.
i promise i will be nice to de society.

somehow we have talked lesser le.
i do still treat u as my very very good fren lo.
so do still remember me k?
even when i am at faraway places like bl.

if u think it's referring to u and start questioning abt it.
thinking " i still gt talk to yiqi wat"
den de person is obviousli nt u le. HAHA.

2008-10-29T14:53:00.004+08:00

EXAMS. )):

HE191 HALL B-Exhibition Hall, Level 3, Nanyang Auditorium 963

MAS112 HALL C-Block N2, B2c-12, North Spine 204

MAS110 HALL L-Lobby, School of Biological Sciences 255

HP101 HALL F-Sports Hall 3, Sports & Recreation Centre 1158

MAS111 HALL D-Sports Hall 2, Sports & Recreation Centre 203

oh man. )):
i don't even WHERE the freaking exams places are!! let alone doing it well in there.
am so screwed.

on a slight note,
i gt 85/100 for my foundations of mathematics!!!
FINALLY.

was/am so depressed over the calculus la cos i apparently gt lik 51/100 where de avg is 74!??!!
went to find teacher and after goin thru many many rounds,
they decided that they marked mine too strictly so am goin to plus hopefully 5marks??

even though results are still horrendous but at least i am trying la.

OMG.

i so wanna go halloween party at zouk!!!
clubbin clubbin.

and on a sadder note,
i lost le la. my god. how can i go over la jus to eat mos burger.
fine. i shall give him to u. HAHAHAHA.

where is my tree? where is my tree?
*skip abt the place.
happily searching! ((:

thanks for all ur concerns,
i'm very fine now.

2008-10-21T16:25:00.001+08:00

I HATE MY LIFE!

jus screw myself up.

2008-10-11T01:46:00.006+08:00

i am such an emotional killer.

i could have gone to sleep.
but no, i decided to go and play friendster.
and started viewing photos.

and great, guess who i saw?
i am jus so smart.

i promise i will nv play friendster again.

facebook is so much safer.
and the added bonus part of playing word challenge.

arrgh!
maybe i shld start singing the song to me. haha!

期待期待你发现我的爱
无所不在我自然而然的关怀
你的存在心灵感应的方向
我一眼就看出来
是因为爱

okie, juan&li is like probably shakin their heads.
but watever.

and darlings, it was good chill out session!!
drinkin beer and talking. ((:

2008-10-08T22:57:00.009+08:00

i passed my piano exam!!!!!!!!
hurray!!

even though it's a rather low grade or shld i say very very low grade,
but i am still happy!!!
dat means i can jump grade le!!

i initally thot i would fail la.
cos everything fell nt right.
i totally screwed up de pieces la.

but oh well thank god everything turn out alright.
and now i am able to jump grade!

life's slowing down.
thank god for that.
tuitions have finally been cleared.

it's been such a torture to go from boonlay and back to tampines.
you ppl out there has no bloody idea.
and i think i also have no idea how i did it.

thu is my only free day and i will go back to tampines for
1.piano
2.driving
3.samuel tuition
4.farah tuition

and back to hall events.

can u imagine???
life's finally slowing down

am so lookin forward to weekends sleepin in.
this two words have been foreign to me ever since i enter uni.

and speakin of uni.
i am tired of everything and i realise i do need to mug le.
i mean i have been mugging but it's time to get serious serious.

ahh screwed it.
i don even know wat i am saying.

shall start to mug now!!

tml last tuition and it's OVER!!!!!!!

welcome back,
ms ng yi qi stephanie. ((:
somehow i don think abt u so often le.
i guess he has replaced you.
but is there ever a chance?
am so addicted to facebookin.. OMG.

2008-09-30T16:38:00.000+08:00

two's a company, three's a crowd.

friendless.

2008-09-23T00:39:00.006+08:00

okie i am back for more!! ((:

well, these past weeks have been realli realli busy.
did like super lots of things, fotos to xplain it all.

these mrt seats are my favourite companion, wil always sit at dere and sleep ALL the way back to boon lay. or to pasir ris.
life's tiring with so many tuitions and yet managin school work and hall life.

yes i know i am sitting in de proprity seat but i think i am privileged.
hello??? boon lay!!

oo and this cool thing that juts out from the school com. i admit i am suaku. but i was damn fascinated with this.

and hence the pic. if you can look closely there's a paper with stephanie written on it!! it's an ambigram. (if u don't know, check de dict)

and ever since stayin in hall there has been so many first time for me,
i mean not only have i travelled from one end to the other end,

i have washed my clothes in hall. [WOW!]

i think i put too much water and detergent for jus 2 clothes item. =X

and i tried to be the social sect for my hall jcrc.
but unfortunately i lost cos it's jus plain stupid.

but the banner is my uoc fren helped me paint de. haha.
so swt. ((:

and i went butter factory with my roomie the first time.

wearing the geeky specs though i had no idea why.

and not forgetting the pageant nite for uoc.

and celest they all came over for mj! at hall3.

and i won $8!!! hahaa. okie it's jus a small amt. lols.

still alot more from de photos in my folder but i have to collage dem or it's like damn damn lots la.
having lots and lots of fun collaging and perhaps washing it out ba.

okie i gtg to sleep le.
i need to mug tml and watching movies too!!!

mamma mia.. here i go again.
why why, how can i resist you...

2008-09-19T16:45:00.017+08:00

so many stuffs have happened in these past few weeks.
the last time i blogged i was still finishin the first week of school
and now, de 7th week has already ended.

and next week is my recess week le.
yipee!!!!! ((:
though there are like alot of tuitions and assignments to hand in and worst of all,
mid term exam.

oh man, i thot uni was supposed to be slack???

and i am now officially 19yrs old le!!!
though this is the first time i am single. and not to mention ALONE in de republic of ntu,
there were many many ppl to celebrate with me.

MS HUANG,
the post was de most sweetest thing u have ever wrote la. i am damn happy to be ur fren.
there were so many times when i felt like giving up but u were always dere for me.

do well for ur tests and perhaps interview and i shall see u in ntu. ((:
i realli realli hope that u can like come ntu. so i won't be so lonely here. HAHAHA.

MS CHOO,
w/o u, the fotos would not be so beautiful (still beautiful as it has me!) but my life do rocks with u by my side.

thanks for everything and i hope by may, i would have learnt to use photoshop and help u edit de fotos. haha.

thanks for scolding me and pointing out some stupid mistakes that i made in my life so i am able to correct dem in time or at least learn the lessons. dis photo is nothing compared to urs but hey, at least i did smth. ((:

KAIYING,
thanks for celebrating my bdae with me! though it was only 2 of us. and we only ate gelare b4 i was hauled back to republic of ntu, i was still very happy and enjoyed myself.

thanks for the always sudden remarks. cynical abt everything and then we will always ended up bursting in laughter. through randomness, we still managed to create something out. ((:

CELESTINE,
cos u are damn damn busy hence we rarely meet but overall there's still a U in our grp. ((:
and do u know we only have one photo too. hahahaha.

here's de pic. ((:

BENG,
thank you for sharing the present and celebrating it with me!! we always manage to create fireworks with the three of us, regardless of the so less outings we have!! pls go organise one dear, after oct k?
we need to have a chill lax session. ((:

and ii look thru all my fotos, and discovered we have only one single foto together!
da da!!

this is so damn ugly la. we need to take more fotos. which implies more gatherings!!
so go organise one. but need tell huili earlier. she's working!! $5.50 wor.

and not forgetting that u need to study very well and work hard for the interview so that u can come ntu next yr!!!! ((:

FAAAAAAA.
darling it's been so long since we met up!!!!!!! god i miss u so much and de crapping session. and ur bdae pressie is gorgeous. seriouslli.. and de note u gave me, it's sticked on to my hall wall now. hahahaha. was looking thru all our fotos. (we took very little bcos u are damn shy conscious)

but now, u are like "WHOA" the pic of ur tongue sticking out. cool. and signify smth?

NITXXXXXX.
good luck for ur As k? cos u need it. try nt to think too much abt tpjc and the horrifying gate.

seriousli am wondering why the implementation of this gate. makes tpjc like some kind of stupid bank or worse, supermarket.

but den tpjc is goin down and i don quite care. but u mus do extremely extremely well okie??
i wanna see u in ntu too!! ((:

and not forgetting the whole gang of N-zire and my newly found uoc frens. ((:
they were damn swt to surprise me on 12th aug at midnite.

though this is the first time my bdae was nt spend with him, frens or family cos i was stuck in ntu, but i stil felt loved. ((:
at least some ppl rmb and i have a cake and candles to blow. haha.

there's still alot of crazy stuff i did over. this post is jus to thank everybody surrounding me.
gtg for tuition.
MAJOR HAIX.

will blogged soon. perhaps later after tuition.
for now, jus enjoy my hardwork!!

2008-09-04T23:50:00.002+08:00

hey
happy 19th bdae.

you have grown up a year le wor. ((:
are u happy now? living a carefree life?
i certainly hope so.

all de best.

love,
yiqi

will blogged soon.
alot of things to be updated.
lalalalala.

2008-08-11T01:52:00.003+08:00

first week of the school has ended.
and i realise i had a very very packed week.

hall life is totally omg-ly fun!
even though it's EXHAUSTING.

there's like so so many things for u to attend and mingle around.
and after dat, there's like so mani impromto outings.

i'm havin block supper on wed~
aug13th.
i guess my 19th bdae won't be lonely after all!!
cheers! ((:

first week of hw
1. play facebook. start addin all ur frens so that when they can tag u in all de fotos u have taken with them, knowingly and unknowingly.

2. learn some mambo music as ur roomie is a mambo queen and there's gonna be so many zouk outings from now on. since thu have no school and wed is mambo nite.

3. learn how to play mahjong realli well. there's mahjong nite every thu. u don wanna lose so much money as they are playin yi tai 20cents?? omg.

4. know your way ard ntu. u seriousli don wanna get lost again and walked ard for 2hrs like wat u did the first day. that's ultimate cui-ness.

5. learn how to play volleyball, badmintion, tennis and watever sports u can think of. so that u won't suck so much as wat u did that tyme.

6. check ntu website often can? so u can see of any ppl drop de course that u wan.

7. find a library and start printin ur notes!! u skipped so much lec, u need a crash course. seriousli. u need to start studyin. all de ppl in ur course are like studying freaks. bunch of chinas.

8. make more frens so that when u join jcrc, ppl can vote for u. and u can secure a place in hall. ((: it's in hall3 la. such a nice and comfortable room.

9. take up more driving lessons, u need to pass ur driving hopefully at de end of dis yr cos tampines is seriousli very very far, maybe u ought to make more frens who drives and stay in de east!

10. squeeze out some time for yourself can?? u are like dyin under so much workload. studies. hall life. school life. tuiitons. driving. piano. give urself a break. after you have completed the above. HAHAHA. ((:

okie. gotta go.
tuition tml at 9.45am.
this timin is crazy.

few more days to go.
lovin it.>.<

2008-08-04T02:14:00.002+08:00

since school's startin and i'm embarkin on a new journey,
i shall do this letter that i have wanted to do since ages.

dear, future 2012 yiqii
how have you been?? is uni life good for you? you are close to graduating already! ((:
at least i hope so. u have made it to this far right? u nv drop out halfway and banish everyone's expectations of u hor?

jus to check, u are nt addicted to smokin or drugs ya? if you have, kill urself now. no pt readin anymore.

graduating cermony is approachin right? i hope you have found de perfect hairdo. shoes. clothes and all. if you haven, blame shujuan!!! u wanted to plan it 4 yrs ago, she said u are crazy, see wat happen now??? told u, that 4yrs passed by a blink la.

speakin of frens, wonder how ur close frens are doin la.

ky has graduated from psychology. faa from business and nitx is probably in de 3rd yr of uni! jf is graduatin wif you. direct honors.

juan.beng are probably in uni le. maybe they are in de same school as you!! haha. i have no idea. huili is nt intendin to pursue a degree right?

celest is also studying? so many ppl are studyin la. haha. and i'm graduating. ((:

n-zire guys have all finished ns. wow. time realli flies.

btw are u still maintainin ur blog, if not u definitely won't rmb to see dis letter.
or rather on sec thot, u might forgot too.

and oo! i forgot to ask u, do u know ur way ard ntu already? i doubt so. and have you gt a drivin license liao?? i seriousli hope u do. u are like 23yrs old le.

how's piano goin? smooth? and japanese language. u know more that simple phrases le?

well the letter's gettin draggy so i shall end here. realli hope u like uni life and create unforgettable memories. ((: [oh my that's so cliche]

ps: are u attached now?
pps: is the guy cute?
ppps: he better be both cute and rich!! ur dream is to becum a tai tai.

signing off,
present 2008 yiqii

2008-08-03T23:44:00.003+08:00

today has passed.
de day that i thot i will be crying ard.

oh my. wat have i done to myself?

nwe, school's startin tml.
excited. excited
but de shaggness is dere la. LOLS.
clubbin tml.

2008-08-01T12:35:00.006+08:00

i'm havin a realli bad sore throat.
and feeling very sick.

camps are tiring.
cos after i finished uoc, i went straight to foc.

freshmen orientation camp.
it's a hall camp where u get to meet lots of new frens in ur hall.

so as to ensure ur hall life will be fun and enjoyable!
there are like numerous suppers outing.
hall activities.

i'm sure i will have lots of fun! ((:
my roommate is kinda cool. HAHA.
lesley.

i didn't take any photos of my marvellous room and de structure.
but i can guarantee that it's so omg-ly pretty!!

as compared to the other halls, mine rocks la.
i'm so thankful i got into hall3.

timetable is out.
looks alright. ((: no school on thu and most prob can pon fri. HAHA.

but i will be comin back and fro la. cos of all the tuitions.
think next yr, i'm droppin all of my students liao.

i'm tired.
on second thot, maybe i will take up some students dat wants to be in de weekend.
cos i do need some money.

but i realli don wanna go to and fro from tampines to boon lay.
it's a 2hr thingy. it's bloody long!!

train of death

i took it in the inside of my hall lift. my hall has a lift!! i stayed on the 6th level. ((:
and isn't de henna pretty? haha. uoc. ((:

i think this is a very pretty wristlet. but i decided to heed li's advice and nt buy it. HAHA.
cos it's a fake lv.

one day i will buy a real one for myself.
for now, i will jus target my coach wallet or wristlet first.

sunday is approaching.
i guess it still matters deeply in my heart.
~~030808 3rd anniverary~~
but i think i shall need to survive!

my bdae's coming.
didn't even cross my mind till mrlim asked me abt it. HAHA.
presents presents.

i can only think of one thing i wan the most.
and that is u comin over to my hall to give me a surprise.
but it's nv goin to happen.

ps: beng, good luck for driving hor. i wan u to drive me ard! ((:

2008-07-27T13:50:00.005+08:00

ii'm back!
ntu uoc was fun.
blog soon as i'm goin tuition later.

gt two tuitions.
omg, i seriousli think i'm very very li hai.
i'm tired.

post up some fotos.

this as u can see is a mini cooper!!! my senior's car. omg.
i bet li's jealous. she nv take a photo with that car before. HAHA.

two photos that i took of myself. before and after camp. ((:
surprisingly the one is de lift is AFTER camp. haha.

my key to my room in uoc. thank god is nt my hostel room.
mine is so much classier. it's air-con!! ((:

okay goin off liao.
attendin another camp next week.
so damn damn tired.

and timetable is comin out tml!

miss me once more. ((:

2008-07-20T00:50:00.002+08:00

i'm very tired.
and i mus admit a little bit excited

aug is approachin.
i am startin school.

spore's turin 43yrs old.
i'm turnin 19yrs old.
and if there's a IF, we are 3yrs old.

oh well. there's no if.
tml i will be havin camp liao.
camp extend so start tml.
5pm at yishun mrt. i am quite excited how my teammates and everyone will turn out to be.

and i seriousli hope my sp will be nice!
and my gift would be smth i like.

de gift that i prepared for him is nt cheap la.
well maybe after discount it is. lols.

and i am realli worried i might have cramps tml.
pls pray hard everything will be fine.

tml tuition at 9.30am- 1.30pm
after dat, rest awhile i am off.

don miss me ppl, i will be back on sat.
and hopefully i can yak more abt ntu.

oo to those whom i am close with and yet not known dis marvellous news,
i've gt a place in hostel!!!!!!
in hall 3!!!!!! (it's aircon!!!!!)

i am seriousli overwhelmed. ((:
pampered spoil brat. i honestly admit.
wonder how will my room mate turn out.

better nt be like what me and juan imagine.

miss me ppl.
love u back.

xoxo.

2008-07-14T01:00:00.004+08:00

this week has been realli realli busy.
facing another death.

the procedures seem strangely familar but still the tinge of sadness will stil be there.
i only have fond childhood memories of u.

when u reach home, u will carry me. play with me.
walk the park with me.
make syrup drinks only for me.

and when i was a little baby, you will put me to sleep.
gong gong, rest well.
i feel guilty that i did not make de extra tyme to see u when u were alive.

cos perhaps i was closer to po po than u, hence i would not realli bother.
i guess i am wrong.

i now shall treasure more of my grandma.
seriousli, i realli realli love her alot. she always always makes me happy.
and give me money when i am super poor.

and i guess it's only when tragedies happen, u will truely reflect on the value of love.

so, been realli busy.

faa: sorry i have to cancel ur date! i will make it up! and good, liza is dead.

hx: i didn't get a chance to reply u. wat item u wanna from bodyshop?? and u wanna help me wif blogskins? haha.

ky: i'm seein u tml, shall not call u. i'm lazy.

juan: when are u meeting me?? i wanna dye hair la.

pm co-worker: sorry u have to do all these by urself these few days. xin ku le. ((:

li: i need to pass u back ur mask. when is it possible arhs? tml??

beng: stop watching videos and ask me out can. and jia you for driving!

nitx: i'm meetin u tml!! bringin along ur muthusamy?

nigel: i msged u already lors. see u on wed evening. don't ka jiao me during tuition ar.

i think i'm realli cheapo and lazy.
using blog to help me transmit messages. provided they come my blog la.

okie ii wanna sleep le.
haven been realli sleepin very very little dese few days.

2008-07-07T02:10:00.002+08:00

i am freaked out.
i seriousli seriousli am.

at faa's blog, i saw a bloody lizard.
pasir beach, i saw many many cockroaches.

but the best of all.
i was at nicole's hse. tuition-ing her how to bloody hell find de area of a semicircle.
when i spotted it.

a small porcelain bottle.
i was very curious so i stood up and went to see it.

and omg omg omg.
i realised it was a bottle holding the ashes of her previous dead cat.

there it says,
"tiara- 1yr7mths"
and beside the bottle were oranaments of cats.
supposedly to keep her accompany????

i am seriousli seriousli thinkin of lettin go this student.
it's nt dat areas and percentages are killin me.
and although the cat adds on another negative pt.
it's still this pt that makes me seriousli feel like giving up.

my close frens would definitely have heard me mention b4.

omg.
how can i go there next tyme w/o starin at the bottle.

fishing with n-zire was fun. ((:
i was with shawn for almost de whole nite
and we fished quite a lot. HAHA.

catfish. some ordong fsh?
crab. and oh ya some malay ppl gave us a stingray too. lols.

and yea i saw two crayfish MATING
to nigel: it's nt FUCKING.

omg. he saw de scene and he immediately say, "they are fuckin each other. "
wat coarse vulgarities.
tsk tsk tsk. "shakes head"

after dat they fell asleep and left de pathetic few to talk talk.
can't rmb wat we talked

onli rmbed that i was busy correcting honsonn vocab.
it's nt hi-bye fren it's acquaintances. haha.

and it's was mac breakfast. ((:
and i went tuition after that!

after ton-ing whole nite, i still went tuition.
am pretty amazed at myself.
soon went back home.

bathed. and slept.
woke up at 7pm. lols.

wat a life.
okie i gtg le.

tuition tml. )):
early in de wee morning.
wat a life, i repeat myself.

2008-06-30T01:04:00.006+08:00

was seriousli so sad just now.
realli.
why can't you understand? the hassle i have to go thru? how can i don't go orientation??
maybe i feel that somehow this
arrgh!
i thot she knows me best.
i realli realli didn't know wat to do.

lucky all was settled.
happy ending.
and i feel that this is the best solution.

and i should probably go sleep now.
it's very late.
piano tuning tml. ((:

2008-06-29T13:01:00.005+08:00

my new found love.

evening with him turned out fun. ((:

will blogged soon when ii gt all de fotos.

on a happier note. i've finally eaten tcc.

i am seriousli living on planet mars.
a mountain turtle.

gotta go for tuitions now.

2008-06-27T17:32:00.002+08:00

anyone see de difference??
i've managed to expand my blog.

seriousli ii am ever so pleased with myself.
considering i am a tech noob.
and don realli understand wat the html code is all abt.

ii found how to do it.
ii bet ppl like huili is like "omg. she realli sucks."
and nigel they all sure say de.

but ii am quite proud of myself. HAHA.
n-zire is fishing tonight.
wonder will they get any fishes?

and wonder whether nick brought his hw over?
ii doubt so.
and i think ii realli scared him dat day.

he will know why right?
my dear student.
receiving the sms is quite a shock.

ii'm hungry.
eating is the best option. but ii can't.
ii need to slim down!!!

height and weight measurement is coming. )):

2008-06-21T00:50:00.003+08:00

i jus feel.
that sometimes i don belong at all.
at the end of the day
i am all alone.

i am trying so hard.
but somethings are best left unspoken.
i guess maybe i'm wrong all the while.

2008-06-20T19:14:00.011+08:00

been really busy these few days.
have been working at communicAsia 2008 at the expo.

that pays me $7.50 an hr. ((:
and all ii do is sit down there, smile at ppl. give out magazines.

but you know, by right my pay is $14 an hr!!!
half is gone to kelly services. so sad.

but nvm, next yr they say they will contact me directly and pay me the rate.
so let's hope next yr they will come again.

a yr.
ii bet many things will have happened.
jus hope that all the things that ii am goin to come across is good.
ii am tired of the bad things experienced in 2007.

but so far, 2008 has been a really great yr.
half of the yr has gone.
and ii can truely say ii like this life of mine.

my booth. simple and empty. so my job as you can see is very very slack ((:

ii have to wear formal wear to this event.
thanks to beng.juan.ky for all the tops.

some more pictures of myself.

and ii know it's unglam but ii seriousli don like to wear heels.
thus ii bring shoes everyday to change.

flips-flops are realli ultimate best!

okay, meeting N-zire.
movie movie.
later nigel scold me again for being late.

and omg ii have to pay $10dollars.
)):

there goes my pay.

2008-06-16T16:36:00.007+08:00

shall continue blogging.
post up all those fotos.

dat day at GSS.

we started cam-whoring like mad.
still gt alot of fotos that are of ky and huili and not me.

so no point uploading. haha.

sentosa.
ii look so cool right? and the two of them w/o me again!

the three frens. ((:

told you ii and huili can't do it together.

and lastly, when we have bathed and ready to go and eat.
went celebrate ky's bdae!!
overall it's fun fun fun!!

ii so wanna buy another shades. but it's damn damn ex.
$40plus is way way over budget.

25th may
cafe cartel. and my banana waffle eaten halfway. LOLS.

de ppl who were there with me. shawn+jingren.

and obviousli, there need to have pictures of yours truely.

one of the days, the popular expo fair.
uncle ringo was there. and we gt free rides.

so my lovable cuties played abit.
fotos.

and we decided to be alvin and the chipmunks.
ii think ii look cute as theodore.

ii had to dig for green clothes la.
ppl pls appreciate and say we look cute.

30th may
late night shoppin at marina sq.
ky called me and asked me to go shopping!!

shades at charles&keith. costs abt $53.
thus ii could only afford a photograph.

it's a long long dress.
tried while waiting for ky to try on her tops.

and we cam-whore some more. HAHA.

june 1st
met up with sockhoon to attend a piano concert.
omg. the pianoist was marvellous.
realli realli marvelous.

ii can only hope to be 1/100 as good as her.
ii'm serious.

and from june2nd to june 5th
ii was busy mugging for japanese

cos ii've finished the module and of cos there are tests and exams.
and yippie ii passed.

omg ii gt only 40/50 for oral.
ppl gt like 48 la.
dat's where ii lost alot of marks. )):

spotted my name??
click on it if you are realli kpo.

and here are the movies that i've watched these past weeks.
omg.
no wonder ii'm so poor.

and lastly,
on fri.
13th june
ii went out with my bro.sis and mum to ikea.

we were trying to do a smile and angry pose.

and just let me cam-whore abit. there were alot of mirrors.

my bro&sis aren't they adorable?? ((:
if you think they are not den it's wither they are really not
or that ii love them too much till ii've gone blind.

but ii don't think so.
they gotten the genes from me.
they are MY bro and sis.

all done.
and my uni stuff too.

left all de submission thing.
online stuff mostly done. need to take photograph.
now all ii need to do is buck up for driving.

)):
why am ii so so stupid!
arrgh.
seriousli, driving is realli very difficult.
ky is so damn smart.

tml meeting up honsonn and shawn.
eating tp food.

den later ky. gelare half priced waffles.
it's been so so long since ii ate.
durin jc ii didn't. den after that due to jap ii couldn't.

loves.
happiness can be that simple.

2008-06-15T01:03:00.005+08:00

okie, since ii have quite some time,
shall blog abt wat happened in all those past past weeks.

warning,
it's gonna be a long long post. with all de fotos.

let's start on

23rd may
it's GSS!!! start of the GREAT S'PORE SALE!!
omg, i have never felt so happy in my dear life before abt GSS.

used to be quite indifferent abt it, but suddenly this yr, ii am so so happy abt it's arrival!!!
maybe bcos ii can shop till ii drop ba. haha.

so in the afternoon,
meet ms huang sj for lunch.

inital plan was to go back to jyss to eat grilled fish but in the end we changed our mind and decided to go tp.

so two suko ppl. who are nt tpians, decided to find our way to design canteen to eat western.
bcos we heard so many ppl talking abt it.

called dodo but she was busy.
nwe after walking, we finally found it. ((:

and ii drank ribena!! seriousli, ii realli liked ribena after jc years.
after dat, we went to slack at jupita cafe.
saw nigel b4 dat.

talked.talked.chilled.
and after dat, she went home, ii got ready awhile and went out again.

meet kaiying and huili.
m)phosis sales. omg. it's freaking 50% la. ii brought a pair of sandals at the price of $10
after that the three of us went taka to see see shop shop.

fotos fotos.
maybe ii shldn't upload already. omg it's by huili's camera.
blogging is gonna be very very slow le.

new shoes!! a photo where i'm convinced i'm stamford raffles.

and there are lots more, but ii stopped already. lols.
shall blog abit only.
omg, i am so damn tired..

24th may
sentosa sentosa sentosa!!
sun-tanning. ((:

ii can't do the jumping posture with ms choo.
we tried like 10times but it all failed. LOLS.

and yap, ii've done with blogging.
am very very tired already.
to think ii still say it's gonna be a damn long post.

ii wanna go sing k.
when is somebody nice enuff to pei me go??
it's times like this when ii need you by my side.
ii actually start to miss you. ((:

2008-06-12T19:53:00.003+08:00

wow. it's been so long since i blog!
have been really busy.

shall do the 7things that fateha ask me do.
den de next post shall be all abt the things that happened in de past past weeks.

7facts abt me.
1. loves clothes. hair. bags. shoes.
in a word = shopping. (:
2. sleeps. night owl. can sleep at freaking 5am.
3. dress in my three-in-one.
4. food. seriousli ii realli like to eat. especialli when i am studyin. i thank my lucky stars i'm nt fat.
5. i secretly likes to study. enjoys the thrill of it. and loves books.
6. hmm, hangs out with my frens often. surrounded by them makes me happy!
7. i'm nt frens with technology. seriousli. ii really don noe how to work them all.

7things i treasure most
1. kkg
2. my three in one clothes.
3. calculator. (yes, it's calculator, i can't live w/o it. )
4. piano
5. kkbear
6. my gucci bag
7. flip flops

7things that scares me.
1. cats
2. more cats.
3. alot of cats.
4. i think it's still cats.
5. bugs.
6. cats.
7. cats. ii'm realli afraid of dem.

7music at the moment.
1. Breathless-shayne ward
2. 最近還好嗎- she
3. unforgiveable sinner- lene martin
4. 你 - 林依晨
5. 半情歌-元若蓝
6. 黃昏曉-王心凌
7. 小烏龜-張棟梁

actualli there are more la. ii jus pick out some from my mp3.
and gosh, i don noe why this post is takin up so long of my time. haha.

nwe,
7words ii say the most
1. fuck.
2. omg
3. wth
4. nwe
5. damn
6. you suck
7. i suck

7ppl ii tag to do this.
1. yimin
2. huili
3. shujuan
4. nigel
5. nitx
6. boon chin
7. and you.

okay ii need to read up on my application details and all.
shld ii live in hostel?
ii'm quite confused.
and need to fill out de forms. cos my package has finally arrived!! (:

2008-05-30T16:23:00.004+08:00

seriousli ii think ii am too superstitious.
and so are my frens.

ii failed my ftt.
and yea, have gotten over de bloody fact.

but the no ii sat was 14 (yao si)
obviousli it was some bad omen.
and to make it worse, de aircon was blowing directly at me.
and de opp guy was sniffling and leerin at me.
ii SWEAR.

so ii failed.

den come shujuan.
who sat at 54 (wo si)
obviousli with such a number, she died.
and failed too.

to think she still go back and take her ic.
but oh well, she has also gotten over it
and is now happily waiting for her next retest.

de last one is huili.
she failed too.
nt at all a surprise. HAHA.

considering de times she took for btt and de number she sat
18 (si ba)
she died. so well. she is now tryin her best to find another timeslot.

ii am nt superstitious but de trends are quite apparent.
don ever sit numbers like 14.54.18

dey are really bad.
but de slight prob is often dese numbers are given to us. we can't choose!

one thing ii'm happy abt,
huili & mine's jap reg no is 35 and 36
we are very very safe.

haven upload yet for de photos are still being sychronised. MSN is ever so slow.
and ii know the whole country knows
but still ii wanna shout
GSS IS HERE!!!!

shoppintilliidropped.

2008-05-28T01:26:00.002+08:00

MOODLESS. MOODLESS. MOODLESS.

totalli moodless.

ii realli suck.
whencaniibetruelyoveryou?
when can ii realli smile happily and forget abt everything.

fuglifee.
seriousli, ii have no idea wat to do now.

BAD MOOD.BAD MOOD.BAD MOOD.
whydehelldoiihavetoseeyou?
ii suck.

2008-05-27T01:44:00.002+08:00

oh my god.
ii'm damn damn sunburnt.

red red lobster.
and havin a hard time sleepin too.
putting on loads of moisturerzers.

shall upload all de fotos when ii have gotten from huili.
bcos she insist to use her canon dis tme round.
but somehow sharin folder abit slow.
and all de fotos ii see are of kaiying&huili.

BORING.
so blogged next time ba.
oo. dis is my 301 post.
wow.

and damn.
ii'm startin work soon and havin tuition
cos apparently all my students don wanna drop me.

even though ii sae that ii can only tuition dem in de evenin and timing accordin to MY schedule.
dey agreed!!

ii mean as a student ii wouldn't la.
ii pay you so you need to fix to my schedule and not de other way round.

oh well. maybe bcos ii am good.
and dey like me alot even though ii scream.scold.hit dem when dey get a bloody qn wrong.
HAHA.

ii mus admit ii am quite unruly.
talk abt bein a prim&proper tuition teacher.

samuel actually said that ii am a pretty&brilliant tuition teacher. YIPPE!!
but unruly and unreasonable.
and has emotionalli and physicalli scarred him.

wth la.
he's jus a small kid.
ii won't be affected by his nonsensical comments. lols.

and jap exam is approaching.
omg.
will ii pass??

ii realli hope so.
ii mean ii need to la.
if not ii will realli be emotionally and physicalli scarred. ):

but somehow ii can't get into de mood of studyin.
ii will jus do de hw and dat's it.
dis is realli realli bad.

someone please give me back my studying abilities.
or rather money so ii can buy my COACH wallet.

ii am crazy.
crazy enuff to go sun-tan in de hot weather and get myself sunburnt.

ii am realli crazy.
over you.

2008-05-21T22:59:00.003+08:00

so mani things have happened dese few days
ii mean obviousli some have been blogged by fotos but the rest are still hidden.

can't rmb much.
so now bloggin at my own memory.

huili's 19th bdae.

a simple celebration this time round.
with me.beng.

surprised her at jw hse.
ii know she don't believe it, but we realli went up blk XXX
pressed de lift, lift-door opened.
and wow! he's here!!

and miracelousli, ms choo was at dere!!
iiknowyouaretouched. don't u dare deny. HAHA.

and de bloody cake+card is realli damn damn ex la.
watever. why do u have to guess de price correctly.

hope u like de present that me+beng walked 4eva to get.
de three of us can create fireworks and laughter whenever we talked.

and damn sad, dere's no fotos.
cos de digital cam. person reformatted de memory card?!?
oh while.
just proves SE W910i is so much better. HAHA.

life do rocks with u as my fren.
happy belated bdae gal. (:

and now ii don recalled anything except de long tuitions!!
freakin 16 tuitions in a week.
dat's scary.

oh ya,
ii went back junyuan sec to eat grill fish!!! lalalalala~~

grill fish.kaiying&yiqi

we were talkin on de fone and ii was tellin ky abt de last tyme when me.juan.li woke up at a freakin 9am to go back to jyss to eat de grill fish again.

ya, we actualli did went back onli to be stop at de security guard.
wasted trip.
damn sad.

so me and ky decided to try our luck on fri.
as she didn't go work so we went back
and dis time we succeeded.

bluffin de security guard that we came back for CCA.
saw huiyan, who realli did came back for CCA. lols.
and we also saw mr ang. (:

he told me specificalli and directly that he was damn shocked that ii have gotten a A for mathematics.
and when ii told him jingfeng too has gotten a A, he shrugged it off as 'that's expected."

so sad la. my A is a surprise but jf is a must.
de obvious different treatment.

oh well, 2yrs under him,
ii have been taught not to take his words too deeply if not, ii will have long ago died from depression.
he always always target me and my grp of frens. esp ms.huangshujuan.

after that ii met up wif juan and we went town.
far east.
shopped shopped. brought a dress.
juan brought bubble tea. HAHA.

after dat li joined us, and she brought a M)phosis bag.
which me&juan bet that it will onl last for a month. HAHA.

and true enuff, when ii saw her ytd, it has been dirtied.
after dat, homed.

dinner wif mrlim.celest.ky.me

finalli met up with celest. (:
even though it's a short dinner, did talked abit.

driving teacher treated us at bedok 416. haha.
de food was very good. and de dessert rocks.

after dat celest went home to mug. POOR GAL.
while me and ky went town shopping. HAPPY GALS.

after dat we went kinokuniya at de taka branch dere.
seriousli, she's de onli fren who ii can go kino with.
all my frens would be bored to death.

books are my ulitmate love.
shoes.bags are too.
and not forgettin food. LOLS.

after dat, we went COACH.
and ii saw de wallet that ii want.
a freakin SGD $489.

who can give me so much money?
or who can help me buy at LA??

oh ya, b4 de dinner, me and ky went to watch

nice nice movie.
one that sets u thinking abt not onli life. but also death.

and yes,
ii have finalli finished all my DS downloads.
happy happy gal. (:

2008-05-19T20:55:00.007+08:00

china ppl are realli horrible.

was readin newspapers and ii discovered that dey are actually earnin money from the earthquake disaster.

sendin fake SMSes to ppl askin for donation.
when in fact they are a fraud company.

ii mean it's their bloody country who's faced with the disaster
and has been robbed of so many lives.
they have to make it worse by actually gainin some profit from the tragedy.

wat the hell are they thinking?
some china bitches are already sellin themselves off here in Spore.
ruining familes.
leavin poor hysterica wifes cryin and lamenting abt their poor life.

now it happens to their own ppl
and dey can do this too.

w/o the slightest sympathy.

it makes me so so mad at them!
ii was already very lost. at words at how they have survived 100hrs at dere.
and the story of how, the gal had to chopped off her leg in order to save her life.
w/o any pain-killers.

why the hell are they doin this?
realli.
ii don understand.

some long due photos.
ii've decided to give up on photoshop.
and jus post de photos of haji lane. ice-cream creamery.sentosa.nfy meetups. (:

enjoy.
i had a hard time uploadin them la.
seriousli can't belive ppl upload 200pics in one post.

meanin dey took 200pics in one date.

haji lane. juan.qi

anticique phone!!

so naturally we had to take a momento.

juan tryin to look like a glamourous superstar.

self-obsession.

after that, we went to another shop.

and we saw this figurine.

along with these car stickers.

de "bitch" one will look nice on my car. HAHA.

cats are, regardless of colours,

horrible creatures.

and we decided to have a go at the swing.

and even asked some ppl to help us take.

LOLS.

juan with the skateboard.

and de fire extinguisher.

she's tryin to drink all de water up.

after that we were quite tired, playin all those suko stuff.

so we settled for some ice-cream

can't belive we posed at ice-cream?!

at this lovely store-PLUCK.

and de mirror!!

it has quite a nice effect.

dis pencil box reminds me of gayness.MRang.

straightness must be present in this world,

or we will be tilted.

takin another shot at de lovely mirror.

mad jack&island creamery-juan.ky.li.qi

de menus. at mad jack

and den we had desserts at island creamery.

photos!!

we submitted this at de end, to paste it up on the walls.

HAHA.

sentosa trip-ky.qi.thails

gettin ready.

my eyes look horrible.

a snapshot taken from de viewpt of cable car.

our IR looks NOT ready.

but muthusamys are really hard at work.

me&ky. (cable.car)

my face looks damn damn fat.

posin with the mouse.

de mouse looks intelligent. and probably is

just like me. (:

taken at de merlion dere.

where de wind is blowin so horribly.

and sun glarin at you that ii am forced to wear my shades.

ii think my shades look too big.

dis is much better.

ii like dis one.

ii have a demure look. (:

tryin to take a photo of my front and ky's back.

taken at de LUGE.

mine and ky feet.

and ii started cam-whorin.

tryin all looks of me.

and ii think ii was tryin to look emo.

playin with my hair.

and lookin spastic here.

but yet preety.

HAHA.

holland v-juan.qi

seriousli we two like to go weird places.

and explore. HAHA.

de swinging doors!!

omg, ii realli wanna try la.

but damn ps.

so ii jus took a photo. HAHA.

while waitin for juan to buy the yogurt.

and soon it came.

after dat yogurt,

we explored abit b4 we came to another ice-cream store.

de names are so unique.

just got dumped.

say cheese.

and paired uniquely with flavours.

gold rock.

choose it.mix it.enjoy it.

our ice-cream!

my lovely juan.

small little oranments.

husband+wife.

juan when can ii buy for you?

nfy meetups.-nitx.fatx.yiqx

b4 goin out.

while waitin desperately for that royal queen to come in her pumkin.

we cam-whored

or at least ii did.

nitx was on phone call wif fatx

and ii was basically entertaining myself.

till ii became frustated at why she isnt coming.

did her royal coach suddenly became a pumkin??

and she's no cinderella.

HAHA.

taken at de sky train. (:

my starbucks cake.

de drawin looks really nice right??

last few photos of de dae.

a spastic moment.

both of dem really looks natural.

god, nitx eyes are beautiful

back home,

cam-whored at my reflection.

reflections.reflections.

and isn't my bro.sis cute??

oh well, it's de genes. (:

okie. damn long post.

uploaded like zillions of fotos.

sometimes, ii wish dat ii can go back to jc.

bcos then ii just might feel de love you have for me, once more.

live my life that way.

ii just might be happier.

2008-05-11T01:37:00.005+08:00

finally after daes of draggiin.

my ma and sis nagging,

juan scolding and worrying.

ii have gone to accept my course.

so officially ii am not courseless. (:

and ii have brought a new book.(:

love loving my life.

2008-05-04T01:18:00.004+08:00

have ii mentioned,
that ii am now de proud owner of this bag. (:

real gucci.
my ma brought for me de.
HAHA.

juan is so mightly jealous.
so dear, you have gt to work hard.

we both heard wat ur brother said!

a picture to prove it's mine.
HAHA.

and ii know ii am damn suko
but ii have never seen a bus broke down b4.

de repair machine even has de same colour. OMG.

and if ii managed to get photoshop,
ii can den put all de photos into square square tiles.
if you know wat ii meant.

ii jus wanna post up de haji lane thing. LOLS.
and so mani fotos la.

and ppl, if you do wan belts,
drop by
http://www.prettymissyy.blogspot.com/

de belts are gorgeous (:
ii am desperately trying to promote la.
LOLS.

is this shirt nice?
still thinking if ii should buy this shirt.

hmm.

god ii love myself too much. (:

2008-04-26T01:02:00.002+08:00

hmm, will definitely post fotos the next time,
cos ii am sleepin soon.

havin tuition tml.
and ii need wake up early.
ppl who know me well know now that ii am wakin up like freakin 12noon.
LOLS.

so nwe ii need to wake up early tml.
have tuiiton and off shoppin ii go. (:

even tuition teachers need a life.

oo and jubliations,
cos this gal jus got accepted to
NTU-mathematical sciences.

my school of all time.
seriousli since sec2 ii have wanted to go into ntu instead of nus.
and ii realli did went in. HAHA.
my first choice.

life's pretty good.
ii jus need some rest and all will be perfect. (:
and maybe lots of money.

2008-04-25T01:00:00.002+08:00

it was on the wae back,
took bus 81 from samuel hse to tampines b4 changin to 291.
and ii was so so bored.

so ii decided to play with numbers and cam-whore.
HAHA.

ii think ii look noce at no3. (:
no o9/10 was done with abit difficulty.
ii had to use timer, and it was tick-tockin at nobody's business.
LOUDLY.

and by the time ii've completed my numbers,
bus81 have already reached tampines library. (:

ii swear ii was just entertainin myself.
and gosh ii need to upload de fotos taken when ii went haji lane with juan.

dat batch of fotos are quite nice too.

ii'm loving SE W910i every minute of the day.
my camera totally rocks.

gosh busy week next week
and ii went sentosa on wed.
to play host to thailand visitors. HAHA.

shall upload de fotos taken too. (:

okie.tml is a LONG dae.
ii can't wait for school to start.
workin is TIRING. ):

2008-04-15T03:38:00.014+08:00

ii realli realli need to start blogging
cos it's been so so long since ii updated my faithful readers.

or at least ii hope there are readers. ):

can't rmb much.
de photos do all the talking ba.

fri.4th april.

met up with everyone.
trashed everything out.

maybe we might never go back to where we are.
cos ii guess everything has changed.

sat.5th april

after ii had 3 freakin tuitions.
from 10am-5.30pm!
ii guess money is hard to earn. ):

went gym again.
at my lift. ii seriousli like the effect.

sat at the rough rough chairs again but it's NON-SMOKING.
though ii think de sign doesn't help.

the ppl beside us were merely puffing their lives away.

me.sc.nigel.nicklaus.

me again.
while waiting for them to order their drinks.

slacked awhile. shawn joined us. and soon we left.
reach homed.

ii realli like de effect. HAHA.

sun. 6th april

william cancelled tuition.

black clouds in the sky.

and we were lost of wat to do.

till juan thot of goin SETTLERS'CAFE.

that gal is smart.

SOMETIMES.

so here are some of the snapshots.

this game is a topplin game. and bcos it dropped after ky took one toy.

my darlin juan decided to help put back.

needless to say, she didn't succeed. HAHA.

but it's okay, ii don think ii can do dat also. lols.

the rest of the games we played. (:

after leavin settlers'

we decided to go chinatown.

and den at the toilet, we started to cam-whore.

ii think my SE W910i is much better lei.

de lighting one is my camera while the last one is li one.

so much for FLASHLIGHT & ZOOM!

and celest 5-MEGAPIXEL.

HAHA.

and den we had our food.

it was realli realli good.

mon.7th april

sharon's bdae. (:

went causeway pt with ma&sis cos she has shoppin vouchers dere.

told you ii like de effect. lols.

splurge like hell

and ii got an ESPIRIT card member. (:

after that was tuitions all de wae till 9pm.

taken at william's condo toilet.

ii guess ii have a narcissism side too.

tue. 8th april

jap lesson as usual.

ii need to start mugging!

it's gettin muzukashi desu.

and now ii am simply too tired to continue.

shall update again when ii have the time.

but ii mus mention,

ii had a manicure.

yeap. it's pink.

ii can jus imagine fatx.nitx reaction

OMG, you are jus a BIMBO.

lastly some photos of me&sis
we were very bored one night.

and ii think ii simply love polarids shot. (:

goodnite ppl. (:

2008-04-08T02:34:00.003+08:00

in conjuction with juan's post

ii shall put.

OMFG!

seriousli.
and ppl you know wat?

ii think ii need a bf really soon!!
cos if not, when ii try to console ppl and ADVICES them

that maybe this relationship is nt working, they might think,
that bcos ii DON'T have a bf, ii would wan them to remain single.

seriousli.
ii can't believe ppl would think that.

ii totally forgot abt this matter till ky brought it up in the phone call jus now.
cos she herself couldn't believe that and was complaining to me.
HAHA.
so decided to post it up.
silly comment.

it's nothing to me now le.
maybe in the past ii would feel sad, but now realli hai hao.
cos ii guess it doesn't matter to me.

when you don't bother,
it doesn't hurts.

shall post up all the photos next tyme! (:
and it might be realli soon.

and damn it!!
ii'm meetin huili tml!! ):

tue.wed.thu. arrgh!

and isn't this a stupid foto of hers?
nvm, cos she has alot ugly.spastic photos of myself too.
so it's tyme for revenge. HAHAHAHA.

2008-04-03T01:41:00.006+08:00

well these past few days have also been super busy!
everiday there's mani things to do. as ii really happen to have so much activities.

ii even needed a book to write my things.
aka daily planner. (:

and ii have like finally uploaded all those pictures.
and they shall do the talking.

sat. 29th March o8
after a day of two tuitions, normally this super lazy gal would just go home
and lie on my 3.5 super single bed and just SLACK or ROT.

but sc asked me if ii wanted to go gym with him,
and ii thot to myself it's been ages since ii wear my adias sport shoes, so ii decided to go!
ya, ii actually went to gym bcos ii wanted to wear my sports shoes and my class tee
cos it's a dry fit!

tpjc o6s21
class jersey. a pity ii couldn't capture the back view.
it states: yiqii 17.

sun 30th march o8
decided to go play pool with kaiying!
cos we wanted to brush up our super bad skills. lols.

de pool table and below, ky, tryin desperately to shoot the blue ball in.

in the end ii think she succeed?
the hole is damn near la.
lols. it was a damn hiliarious game.
and the two of us were laughin NON-STOP

after the game, we went to eat and den slack at STARBUCKS.
it is always always damn nice when we could have gotten this kind of seat.

had my all-time drink.
caramel frap+raspberry.
plus warm choc cake, it's damn damn nice. (:

talked to ky about the woes of bein a tuition teacher.
like, how come students don noe bthe easiest things
ionic bondin is a METAL+NON-METAL bond
vectors are jus sums addin up, (a+a=2a)

seriousli.
we were complainin and laughin non-stop again.
HAHAHA.
homed ard 11plus.

mon 31st march o8
ii went to gym again!
cos ii was addicted to the runnin track. haha.
experimented with alot of machines.

ii especially like the pull ups,
but no photos to show.
cos gym, no one carries a hp ard, snappin photos.

after gym, went eat and it was STARBUCKS again.
but this tyme, the seats were like this. ):

and our drinks. (me+sc+nigel)

ii had an additional glass of hot water and used the thin thin straw. haha.
have you ppl used it b4?
ii think this straw is very good for drinkin hot drinks.
some people jus have the brains to invent smth like that!

reached home ard 5plus.
took a short short nap and ii went out to meet
beng.li (:

went bedok 85!
it's been more than a year since ii ate dere.
and ii still think the ba chou mee is still damn nice.

as usual, meeting dem was jus very very nice.
we talked crapped. and laughed.
seriousli, ii can never grow tired of beng.
and beng, congratulations!!
jia you for ftt. it's damn difficult. ii know.

and we can always suan huili. HAHA.
didn't took any photos cos ii went hurriedly home.
ah ma fell sick again. ):

tue 1st April 08
it's bloody APRIL FOOL!

ii didn't know till it was 5pm. lols.
like more than half of de day had passed.
and no one even bluffed me anything.

till nigel. he told me he couldn't go clubbin on wed.
and ii totally believed him. wth!

and nitx who told me that she wanted to take h2 chem!?!?
for bloody A'levels? omg.
ii was so freakin worried for her till she sent me a msg,
" hee, happy april fool!"

but the best of all is dear fatx, she gt the same msg and she still calmly msged back to nitx,
" that's a good combi, do u wan my books? "

wth! nitx, she is definitely in the middle of something la.
hoc ceo needs to do some work, you see? (:

and then at nite, nigel told me that he failed his maths supp!
ii was so worried for him only to have him tellin me, AGAIN
HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S!

wanted to msg juan with shewillknowwat.
but figured it had no creativity. hahah!
but nevertheless it was really a good laugh with juan.

wed 2nd April o8
supposedly wed ii will jus have piano lesson and tuitions
but ms huang wanted me to pei her go shoppin
so ii CANCELLED all my tuitions to meet her.
seriousli, ii am so so wei da!

in the morning, wake up to go Changi Hospital to visit my ah ma.
stayed till 11.10am b4 leaving.
took buses to go piano lesson
and later meet li.

shopped awhile while we wait for juan.
and den the three of us went shoppin at bugis.
after we talked to dodo. cos she's workin dere ma.
nothin caught our eye and thus we decided to slack awhile first.

juan darlin was very sad, and we tried to comfort her.
but it was quite a futile attempt.
cos everytyme she happened to glance at the green book. lols

so we cheered her up by makin her join us in,
FISH SPA!

have you ppl heard b4?
it's a spa treatment where all thoses little fishes come and eat away ur dead skin!
it's been clinically proven and me+li have long ago wanted to try i!
and finally we did it. with juan accompanin us too.

initally they were screamin like hell.
cos it was quite itchy and they couldn't stand it. HAHA.
but finally they calmed down and we decided to take photos!

me and huili!

the three of us. (:

and lastly a pic to show our legs' dead skins being eaten up by all these fishes.

in my opinion, ii feel that it has an effect la.
but the two were quite convinced we just blow off our money.

but as juan says, " wo you de shi qian!" LOLS.

she's in black while ii'm in white.
even the shoes complements that.
cos it's de same kind of shoes!

last few photos taken at the train platform.
cos li left to meet celest they all le.

overall it was an enjoyable date with the two of them!

juan,
don so sad k? the trend is true de. ur TP one tyme den okie le!
next tyme sure okie de. don't think too much la.
ask li to help u shift ba. haha.
love you!

and the remaining tyme when ii was not out wif my frens
or blogging or you-tubing

ii am studying japanese.
cos it's getting difficult.
and ii really realli wanna pass!

2008-03-28T17:06:00.005+08:00

世界太啰唆能不能够放空失踪
是谁在我的背后说什么好像又没说
一颗心总被你悬在半空中难受
可是你又迟迟不说爱我
没有你我发现自己无法感动
是否当身边的人都变成观众我该做作
Oh you are the sunshine in my life
But I don＇t really know
需要你的时候感受你的温柔
能不能勇敢说爱

关掉你的眼睛你的鼻和口 say no
如果你也能放下所有请你点点头
我的心只为你一个人跳动心痛
可你还能为我改变什么
没有你我发现自己无法感动
是否当身边的人都变成观众我该做作
Oh you are the sunshine in my life
But I don＇t really know
需要你的时候感受你的温柔
能不能勇敢说爱

也许到最后
你还是要走
没有你我发现自己无法感动
是否当身边的人都变成观众我该做作
Oh you are the sunshine in my life
But I don＇t really know
需要你的时候感受你的温柔
能不能勇敢说爱

life's been pretty much the same.
next week will be insanely busy.

MS CHOO
when you free??
ii wan go takashimaya!

1)eat tako pachi
2)eat auntie anne
3)go kinokuniya buy princess diaries+mediator+american gal
4) buy allure magazine.

cos she sae she is damn jealous ii nv ask her
so here you go.

ii never ask you cos you are damn busy lo.
and thank jw for me.
ii get to take cab home! (:

but dat gal is so damn mean!!
she don wan me to choose present for her sia!
say ii bad taste. wth!
ii shall not buy for her present le.
so beng, if u wanna ask me share to buy her present, which she has told me so so many times
an adidas jacket.
ms ng, 1cents also don wan fork out.
haha!

oo and ii am damn damn pleased with myself!
ii managed to find a day where everyone is free.
haha!
ii can't help feelin so pleased wif myself.

2008-03-27T00:49:00.006+08:00

sometime you need the bravery to do what you have got to do. (:
you are right about alot of things
and ii find myself nodding my head when ii read your post.

but one thing ii disagree with you is, ii don think ii am in the wrong either.
for ii merely express my views.
liberty of speech is a wonderful thing, don't you agree?

the lines depicting ur story and mine is blurred.
and the major point is,
you stand alone, or maybe you still have her.

and while ii have the rest behind me.

2 versus 5, ii still win.
life is always unfair.
ii can presume that you are noddin your head away too? lols.

we no longer blame you, or in fact, we have never blamed you at all.
ii can swear by that.
and believe me, ii have stood by in ur shoes to think too.

ii don wanna end this frenship either ii guess
cos you were really dere for me when ii needed you
and ii think ii was dere too when you needed a listenin ear.
*at least ii hope so!

furthermore there are innocents in this quarrel
and it's quite childish to end frenship.
cos darlin, we are 18yrs goin to 19, frenship talk is for PRIMARY school.

and you are 19yrs old,
which reminds me what was the reason that triggered this conflict?
ii am confused. realli confused

we need to meet up, the 7 of us.
and you need to promise me, you must be brave.
cos if you cry, ii guess we eventually won't have the mood to go on.
and it would not have a satisfactory conclusion.
can? (:

also, you have only talked to ky, what about the rest?
ii am sure you wan to clarify your doubts too.
if what you say on ur blog is true,
would you dare to msg me?
since you say you no longer wanna escape le. (:

my phone is 24/7
ii am waiting. (:

ii really hope you do.
realli.

but if you don't,
ii guess ii wouldn't try again le.
cos ii am tired. and beside blog quarrellin is quite stupid too.

the only advantage is however long you type, it's FREE!
unlike SMS, one message costs 5cents,
imagine ii type it all out, GOSH!

so it all depends on you le.
if you really wanna end everything, then take care.
see you around. (:

ps.
MS HUANG
ii wanna go shopping!
dis is so so random.

2008-03-25T01:47:00.007+08:00

ii realli need to find a time to upload all those photos.
and ii shall make it today ba.

shall randomly blogged abt the past events ba.
mon-wed (1oth-12th)
N-zire chalet at aranda country club.

gosh, the place is nice and it's damn damn cold dere.
was wearing shawn's jacket all the wae. cos the aircon is turned on full blast
24/7 for the three daes.

played fairygodmother tycoon, a game where u make potions.
and earned money. and little red riding hood comes to ask u for help. LOLS.

bbq. drank. mahjong. cushion fight.
ds. psp. mac breakfast.

those were wat occupied me the three days.
drank alot! cos keep losing den drink and drink. haha.
but it's nice. (:

on wed,

went airport wif shawn to send jr off,
cos he goin cheng du for his attachment.
2mths!

drank starbucks. and ate those cupcakes. ii didn't realise it's damn nice!
talked with shawn. about so many things.
we lamented about out pathetic life.
and talked about how we are tryin our best to break out the vicious cycle.
shall hope for the best ii guess. (:

thu.
farah tuition. and jap lesson.
at first was abit blurred abt the lesson cos ii didn't went for tue lesson.
but luckily li was dere to help me understand.
thanks gal. otherwise ii would be damn blurred.

and we created something cos it is rumored that it brings in money!

fri.
nicole tuition and after dat meet li.
went shopped at bugis and brought 2 dress.
she brought a bf tee.
and seriousli ms choo, we need to progress with it!
why are u so damn busy? lols.

sat.
samuel tuition cancelled! (:
cos ii was damn damn tired. and ii feel sick too.
meet up with ky to go nus open hse!
omg, it's another freakin far place. and the school is also damn big.

later she went off to meet yuping while ii met my family for dinner. (:
at nite went sleep at ah ma hse. cos she was sick and ii guess someone ought to be dere.
so being a filal granddaughter, ii went.
beside ky went on fri le. she has done her part.

sun.
slacked at home whole day before ii meet up my fren to watch

this is seriousli a cool movie!
damn cute and funny and realli veh good.
though initally there was relucants, in de end, both of us were happy abt it.
it costs us 8dollars okay.

and speakin of cartoons, ii wanna watch this too.

isn't it cute?
omg. cartoons are the utmost fave. (:

there's still a week of blogging but thinking of the photos to upload, ii am damn sleepy le.
shall upload in next post ba.
and ppl side side note, ii finally submit my application le.

*hopes for the best.

we just wanted to show how stupid we can get.
and hence this photo.

loves them.
and them.

and not forgetting her too.

and lastly mineself.

taken at the bus to kill my boredom. (:

2008-03-19T03:24:00.002+08:00

true enough, ii miss you so.

ii realli do.
and ii really think ii am still trying so damn hard.
but it's quite a futile attempt.

shall post photos when ii am damn damn free.
now ii am off to sleep.

for ii jus leave some footprints
saying, ii realli do miss you.

if only you would sing the song for me
but once again, it's impossible. (:

2008-03-10T01:17:00.003+08:00

hmm, the worst has realli gone.
what ii dreaded, really did not happen and ii thank my god for that.
and not to mention all those who were dere for me.

ii realli realli was so freaked out.
and maybe only god knows.
the numerous butterflies and bees in my stomach.

ii slept at 5am and woke up at 9am.
only 4hrs of sleep.
and ii onli drank one small teeny wheeny cup of H20. till 6pm.
ii am now realli realli amazed how ii managed to do that.

but thankfully all those hard work has not gone wasted.
ii mean ii realli did my very very best le. and though it's not like ultra super fanatstic
it is still something.

my prelim grade was like straight Es for chem & math and a U for phy, S for lit & gp
but luckily my A levels are much much better, (:

ii was damn shocked that ii could gotten a B for lit. after ages of failing and getting Es or Ss, a B grade is definitely something.

am a little bit disappointed with GP for ii realli pushed so hard but den again, many ppl failed their GP. so at least ii passed.
but jingfeng.nitx.bijun still can get B la. so i am sad. lols.

and ii got a C for phy. am quite happy actualli cos phy wasn't my strong subject la.
jus wished my gp gotten a C and life would be perfect.

but then again, life isn't always fair. so am dealin it better nowadays.
my math and chem were not bad, ii might sae! lols.

ii could have made it so far was bcos of you all.
serious.
when ii was always about to give up, you would be dere for me. in a way or another.
especially during the last three months when hell broke.

ii was so damn lost and confused.
nothing seems to make me study or do anithing.
ii had to heal my broken heart and mugged.
ii swear life is jus unfair.

ppl just deal with one thing at a time, ii had to struggled with two. :(

so aniway here are the ppl ii wanna thank.
w/o you ppl by my side, ii wouldn't have done it.
so scroll down and find your name.
(randomly placed,)

huang shujuan
choo huili
tan huiying
quek kaiying
nigel sim
wong honsonn
seah shaocheng
lee bengyan
shawn ho
koh jingren
nur fateha
nitika rana
muhammad fahmi
chng jingfeng

and ii think there are still others out too. jus at this point, ur name hasn't come in my brain.
and my brain is tired.

so after receiving my results, went eat kfc with s16.
though not my form class but ii know majority of them so still okie.
was eating kfc and teasin liyu. lols.

reached home slacked awhile and went to find nzire.
slacked at red carpet. talked craped as usual.

sat.
samuel tuition.
and off we (me&ky) went to ntu open hse.
it's damn freakin far at boon lay for god sake.
and when you reached boon lay, u still have to take the bus.

and when you finally reached ntu, you have to take the inner shuttle bus service!
cos the distance btn one school to another is like 15mins walk?
omg.
they also have inner hall shuttle bus?!

and ii have decided, ii wanna live in hall.
boonlay and tampines are like east and west.
shall pray hard ii get into the course ii want and the hall.

after dat went eat V8 cafe again.
and took neoprints again.

shopped around bugis street. and ii brought a nice tanktop.
and after that we went to eat desserts at some cheena shop.
quite nice. and somemore affordable.

reached tampines around 11pm and went catch midnite movie.
step up 2. fantastic show.
it's been ages since we meet up, though technicalli we did saw each other on fri. lols.
and now meetin up isn't so stressful animore, ii might add.

haha! ii bet jingfeng's probably rackin her brains tryin to figure out who the guy is. =P
later we walked back home. (:
and ii think ii saw jx though ii am not too sure myself.

reached home around 2am.
talked to my sis awhile and slept at 3am.

sun.
woke up at 10.3oam.
william tuition.

den followed on by nick tuition.

and finally reached home, bathe and everything,
my cousin wedding. (:

and now ii am ready to go back to sleep.
shall go chalet these few days.
will update all the photos.
ii promise!

2008-03-05T13:45:00.003+08:00

omg omg, this fri is like de dae la.

ii realli realli am praying hard.
and on top of that, freakin out like no one's business.
this is like it.

my whole life depends on the certificate.
ii am damn nervous.
ii can't sleep at nite. tossin and turnin.

ii am with capital W- WORRIED.

am praying hard that all will turn out all right.
ii mugged like fuck la.
ii realli realli hope so.

you ppl, pray hard for me can?
ii am realli very very scared.

2008-03-03T00:02:00.004+08:00

after being for so busy for the past 2 weeks,
this week is like bliss.

from like 7tuitions per week,
ii managed to reduce to 5 tuitions. cos ii am simply damn tired.

for the past two weeks ii have like 9tuitions.
and plus meetin up with frens, talkin, movies.

ii realised ii do need a short short break.
so ii slacked for the past week, only giving tuition to those ii can't cancel.

and ii didn't even go down slack with nzire.
am too damn tired.

but todae ii went shopping!
brought earpiece and a pair of shoes.
ate durian too!
and before that for our dinner, we ate V8 cafe.

ii had black pepper spaghetti with seafood.
first time ii entered the restaurant. quite nice and it's cheaper than the rest.

before that went to visit maxine's videology
it's sort of an art gallery and it's damn nice.
ate bistro delifrance.

which ii also ate spaghetti.
but is chicken creme.

both restaurants soup of the dae was creme of mushroom.
weird.

something has been like bothering me for awhile
used to be indifference about the whole thing but realised ii can't sit here and pretend nothing's wrong.

wat the hell is wrong with you?
ii mean seriousli, are you deprived of frens?

the wae to have frens surround you, remember you and love you
is clearly not the wae you are handling frenship.

how come you are always complaining about the lack of love and concern shown to you by your frens?
ii don understand.

do you see anione of us complaining?
and do u notice that all those complainin and lamenting about ur lack of concern hasn't gotten you aniwhere.

all your complains, have it brought back your frens??
no it hasn't.
instead, we don't feel anithing, except well, your childishness.
remembering doesn't really have to be on dot. (ii might add.)

and not being free on the dae doesn't mean we don't care.
we do have our own lives to lead,
and you aren't exactly living in fairlyland

for this is reality.
reckless-reality.blogspot.com. (to be strictly speaking)

lols.
jus some stupid crap.
bet you guys don't even know wat ii am talking. written all this solely for your case.
love you ppl out there. (:

2008-02-28T01:18:00.002+08:00

i finalli said it le.
"maybe we should take a break."

dese 6 words that had been goin on in my mind for so long. and finally ii said ii, at bus 23
on the way back home.

life's been tired.
ii need some rest.

ii can presume my frens shocked reaction especially fatx and li,
"you freakin wake up at 11plus and you are still tired?? "

ii am. believe me ii am.
so ii shall now go to my soft bed :)

and ppl if you are playin facebook, can you preety please sent me an egg?
and pet my pet will you?

you earn 5munny lo. ii am actualli helpin you!

2008-02-19T01:34:00.003+08:00

well, after a long break from cny,
life resumed to normal.

am still happily strugglin with piano and japanese.
seriousli, japanese is gettin interesting expect it's now memorisin work
ii know the hiraganas by heart so now it's the piecing of dem to make into sentences.

piano though it's still two hands but ii am more comfortable le.
since de left hand is forever playing the same notes,
ii just need to handle my right hand notes and press them together.

had passed up my exam fees so ii am takin piano grade1 dis sept.
it's quite worrisome. as ii am unfortuately still not up to that standard.
and it's quite embarrassin to fail grade1.

ii mean serious, if u fail grade 1 how de hell do you procced up?

as for driving, ii pass my BTT le!! =)
so now waitin for my FTT at april 24th.
ii have been tryin my best to shift it up but to no avail.
how the hell li managed to do it? think she's stationin the website every 5secs.

valentine's dae.
ii seriousli thot it would be a lonesome dae
and ii might be mopin around, thinkin of the unthinkable
but it was not.

ii had tuition.jap and after dat procced to cc mac.
slack with nigel.shawn.siyang.
and we had the crazy idea to drink sparkling juice.
and dey got me chocolates. =)
and you did sms me and it did brightened up my dae.
huiying's bdae! gal happi 19yrs old.
sorry we couldn't celebrate with you for this year is simply too rush.
but you are still remembered by me. (:

and on this special dae, ii received fatx ecard.
it's not only cute but it's heart-warming.

especially this sentence, " i had two great years (ok make it 1.5yrs) with the both of you. We are THE multi-racial clique (: it still amazes me how we can get along so well together! ....... Love fateha "

In the 1.5 years, these two frens were really by my side.
and when ii was just about to cry, they were always dere to make me laugh.
and make me forget the pain and hurt.

ii jus had to talk to nitx and brainstorm abt fatx, it would cheered me up instantly. (:

and ii finally met dem after so long! as usual we they talked about nothing but sex.
long john silvers? only dey could think something was weird.
took neoprints! suddenly the fad is back
have been takin neoprints constantly.
first with juan den li now fatx&nitx

ii swear nitx does not know neoprint machines exist, dat gal CANNOT take neoprints.
ii was practically screamin at her to look at the bloody camera
cos she was dere standing around, lookin absolutely blanked and confused.
and best of all blockin the camera which should be shooting me. haha!

at least my jc years, ii still made some good frens. maybe not as much as secondary,
but they will stay in my life. (fatx can't live w/o me!)

deep inside my heart, ii know ii like you
as a boy fren or boyfren
ii have no idea.

the difference btn boy fren and boyfren.
isn't a very large distance afterall.

2008-02-08T01:49:00.000+08:00

it's all bcos of fatx dat ii am thinkin about my
As result.

her blog is like so apparent that she's gettin de nerves.

and perhaps all those gossip aunties or if u wanna a polite term, RELATIVES dat keep askin you how's ur As.
seriousli, ii don even know. so how do ii tell dem?

and dey would start askin you questions like where do u wanna go after ur As.
POLY??

omg. dey actualli ask me to go poly after two years of striving like mad at jc??
seriousli.

or maybe dey are secretly hopin ii would do badly for As.
damn ii hope ii disappoint dem.

relatives. dey asked about my sis 0levels even know they know already?
bcos their son did better.

and why didn't dey ask me about mine?
simple. bcos ii did better dan their daughter.

ii love my cousins, ii realli do.
but ii am hatin the internal struggles btn the adults.

but ii am seriousli freakin out!
ii prayed prayed ii would get the results ii want.
please.

and to my dear malay fren,
cny means wearin bright colours! but my wardrobe is infested with dull colours.
cos ii look good in black.white.

as my hair is dyed. and permed!
=)
shall upload de fotos when ii got it from dem.

am meeting you tml.
wonder if ii would ran away.
ii am not suited for you lars.

2008-01-24T13:18:00.000+08:00

i realli don noe.

one minute ii was anticipating to meet you.
but when ii have met you.

ii wanted to leave so badly.
cos ii was feelin ever so uncomfortable.

ii just like the time when you and ii are sitting close by.
talking about urs and mine secondary daes.

cos afterall, it was something ii never known.

but anithing more than dat, the uncomfortable feelin is back.

and the most surprising thing of all was,
ii was not even sad.shocked by the answer you gave me.

and when you claimed that you are willing to change just for me.
ii am doubtful.

maybe bcos the one ii loved and whom ii thot loved me back won't even do that.
so how can you, the one whom ii am not even sure ii like?

dat's why ii am confused.

or maybe the answer is just,
let's just remains as frens.

2008-01-18T02:39:00.000+08:00

well so much has happened since ii last blogged. =)

dyed my hair already. like finally. my hair is nt virgin black hair.
it's copper brown. =)
though it is a darker shade of reddish brown. cos the hairstylist say the trend now is black.
so my colour shldn't be so bright.

and being a fashionsta gal, ii go along with her suggestion. lols.
so it is only super obvious under sunlight. haha. like wat's the point lo.

william (my student) didn't even notice.
and my dad too!

piano is getting difficult. cos u are now playing using both hands. u need to press all the keys at the same time.
and to think my piano journey is jus the beginning. ii really do must buck up.

japanese is alright. cos now it's still the basic. have learnt the 46 hiraganas. and in the process of learning more. ii think there's a total of 80letters.

and then with the 80 letters u form meanings.

wa ta shi wa stephanie desu.
wa ta shi wa singapura jin desu.
wa ta shi wa gakusee desu.

means i'm stephanie. ii'm singaporean and ii am a student.
although technically ii'm nt.

but ii don noe how to say full-time slacker in japanese. lols.

ii am still nt lookin for a job cos ii have eough kids on my plate plus ii'm learning so much things.
piano.japanese.driving.

my e-trial btt is comin along with the real test. hope ii will pass! and ii better need to start to read the book!
ii seriousli think it's a bit confusing cos the signs all looked the same. lols. ii seriousli better pass first time lars. all my frens did.

so ms choo, jia you wors!

only watched one movie dis week.
dan in real life.

ii think the show is not nice. cos it jus talks about this guy Dan, and how he struggles not to fall in love with his bro gf and den later somehow or rather that gal became his wife. it's seriously boring and stupid.

and to think ii watched in the weekend. a total of 9.50. ii guess it's the who you are watching with. if it is somebody else, ii don think ii would go.
but since it is emm, ii will go. =p

and maybe, jus maybe, my resolution is abit fulfilled. though now ii would say
"it's complicated"

side note: weekend is finally here! cos tml is fri and that means ii can meet you.
provided you wan to meet me.
and if you know who you are.

ii don like to ask u out so u better ask me out. same for sms or call. haha. unless we are super close frens. bu ran ii will wait quietly for u to zu dong.

so ppl if ii ask u all out that means ii am close to you all. haha. =)

ii still need to buy new yr clothes!
and ii haven got my pay!! =S

2008-01-06T23:53:00.000+08:00

well the first week of 2008 is goin to be over in mere minutes and my new resolution are not even in place.

shall tell u ppl out there my new yr resolution.
1) slim down
2) get smarter with piano and jap.
3) find a bf

option3 is put there bcos juan told me hers was this. and ii thot it was quite a brilliant idea. haha.
but seriousli, it's a difficult thing to find.
cos u can't exactly put up an ad in the Straits Times Classified

"lookin for potential guy with the looks and weath. Pay is negotiable, jus do well to please your employee. Pay would be better if possess a Class 3 license and vehicle"

see, u can't do that. so the above is jus stupid inspiration.

and besides, u have to be totally out of love in order to fall back in love.
and ii'm not sure whether ii do.
god, jus listen to my blog song.

becos jus when u realli feel like u have jus moved on, u turn around and saw the car plate license with those initals.

enough abt point3. regardin point2, piano ii have gradually improved. from usin one hand, i have moved on to 2 hands and now playing a piece with both hands pressin the keys.

it's quite hard initalli but afterwhile, u get to know the rhythm and the sound u produced are no longer dead-conked but sweet and melodious!

and gettin the inspiration from fateha who
BLOWS her clarinet, ii
caress and fondle the RIGHT keys.

seriously, the gal is addictive. with her, it's sexual connotations all over.

option1 is jus as hopeless.
ii shld realli do more exercises.

and maybe when all my new year resolution has been fulfillled, this would be a greater year.
cos frankly speakin last year wasn't exactly the best.

break-ups.frens turned away suddenli and due to these, my grades suffered.
and best of of, theres As.
all these ii realli hope it's jus 2007 and may the best stays for 2oo8. =)

this week would be a busy week for ii have tuition everydae!
seriousli, everidae.
ii realli shld planned my timetable le. cos ii don like a tuition a day. after dat, i am stuck with nothin to do.

feel like eatin roti-prata now. ii'm hungry.
and there goes my new yr resolution point1.

juan, see ya on tue!
we are goin to watch alvin!

even though it is already uploaded on the net.

and ii'm gettin paid soon. =)

2008-01-03T11:07:00.000+08:00

it's been last year since ii have blogged.
so for 08, dis shall be my first post

dono why when ii woke up today, ii realli realli wished ii was back in tpjc.
maybe nt attendin ms huang lectures, but rather slackin in the school canteen
eatin my chicken rice..

with fateha and nitika eating their home-made breakfast.. and later fatx would go buy watermelons.

ii realli wanted dis scene back.

oh well..
dat was the past.

miracles don't happen.
especialli nt to someone like me.
for then ii would wished that you are by my side now.
life is jus full of surprises.

2007-12-26T10:58:00.000+08:00

randomly saw this foto and decided to upload it..
cos it reminded me of the daes when ii was still in tpjc, wearing my school blouse
and PERFECTLY acceptable skirt.. lols.

think we were goin to CBD area.. cos that explains why me and naz were sitting in the bus together. still rmbed that dae was the dae ii fell down on my wae to school. =X
with blood all over.

oh well, there's a saying that saes if u fall, u will grow taller!

the reflections of juan.li.and me. =)

we were goin to raffles country club and on the wae, snapped dis foto using a N81. lols.
it was jus a normal dinner though it was quite bad.. lols.

on the wae back, inital thot was to go clubbing, but ended up, de train kept stoppin due to technical faults. so went back to tampines for starbucks coffee.

so long nv drink caramel frap+raspberry le.. and it is still so nice.
ii seriousli think starbucks nicest coffee is the above mentioned combi.
super swt and yet there is still coffee flavour in it. =)

went courts the other dae, and took this foto.

so nice rite?
it's santa claus sleigh!
and there's snow. haha.

brought beds for me and min le.. along with a small dressing table.
shall buy a painting cos otherwise the room seems so plain.

the painting shall be a puzzle ba? haha.

todae.
meeting up with the rest to celebrate juan's bdae+xchang xmas gifts+go clubbing.

but so sad, ii realli cannot ton over cos thur ii still gt tuition.. ii will be super tired de.. so shall go home ba. haha.

nothing much goin on actualli.
life's still the same. am still busy.
and suddenli, ii wished like hell school's starting

for then. at least you get to see your frens. =)

xmas was normal. so sad.
ii bet new year is just goin to be the same.

2007-12-19T12:42:00.000+08:00

chalet was alright and ii am finally healed..
ain't coughing so badly now..
smiles..

shall post some pics when ii got hold of dat..
was bbq-ing dat dae..
stingray.crabmeat.chickenwings.otah.fishball and satay..

and juan was promoted to satay AUNTIE..
so now she's driving expert (demo) and slowest in heartattack.
her lists just keep adding.. lols.

was actually playing till veh nice when de security scold.. so too bad had to jus tone it down..
slept in de end..

when ii woke up was 10am already.. lols.
and soon we left.

reach back.eat prata.slack at home awhile
and off ii went to meet juan.li cos dey wanted to go robinsons for interview..

and den ii buy my heels.. haha.

been spendin alot after li pointed out to me.. shall qian tao de. haha.
later dere's dinner..

and after dat think we are goin clarkquay to gather around.. sit sit drink drink..
shall enjoy cos tml and fri ii gt 2 tuition le.. =(

and sat.sun there's one.

christmas is comin.. and ii make my plans already!
finally something is finalised.

feel like dying my hair.. but shall wait for new year..
and ii'm hungry now!

byebye.

2007-12-17T12:54:00.000+08:00

smiles. smiles. smiles.

am ii ever thankful that you are by my side.
so that ii can smile happily each day..

busy week ahead with mani activities..
and still with lots of tuition..

currently teaching 4kids..
earnin my money to splurge on bags.shoes.dresses. and learnin new things.

shoppin is like a weekly activity now.. and ii thank god for that..
been buying lots of stuff so now my account keeps decreasin..

been seeing my frens like almost everiday..
and in fact ii think is everiday.

like ms choo. ii see her from last friday till next wed.. last time if ii get to see her once a month, ii will be super happy.. now ii am seeing her everidae.. so am feelin quite sad. lols.

ms huang too.. have been seeing her everidae.. so sians! haha.

past few days have been busy as usual.. everidae there's tuition.. as ii realli do need to earn wat ii am about to spend.

later dere's class chalet for 4e3'o5
will see lots of people dat have not seen for so so long.. 2 yrs le.. quite excited but ytd bei juan say till like not so le.. haha..

wonder if ang will come anot? will be quite nice to see him though ii jus saw him in sept when we go back to jy.. haha!

wed dere will be de dinner.. at raffles country club..
quite excited initally but so weird it's at tuas.. den like not very grand lei.. haha. but since ii pay de 15dollars le.. so jus go and enjoy lo..

and thur it's back to tuition-ing..

okie, ii gt to bath and everything le..
see ya ppl soon!

2007-12-12T12:45:00.000+08:00

After As, ii suddenly feel like my life was so packed in de past..
till dere wasn't a moment that ii wasn't sure what ii mus do..

but now there are many moments like dat!
and ii feel so so happy and blessed..

everyday dere are so many things for me to do.. and dere hasn't been a day that ii'm rotting at home except if u count that daes that i have cramps and can't really go out.

now ii'm sick again wif de flu and sore throats and hoarse voice..
ii can't smell anything. and can only look at fried foods with sadness.

life's been alright..

sat o8/12
met nigel for lunch! at pizza hut..
it's been so long since ii ate pizza le.. and after lunch went shopping around wif him b4 we procced to de arcade.. see him play car.. quite exciting sia.. haha.

after awhile, hy called me and ii went down to find her.. lols.
talked talked.. was brain-washing her.. along wif juan who called my fone..
was loudspeaker all de wae.. lols.

gal, u mus be brave k? if it really takes u 5yrs, u noe that me and juan and along de rest of ur frens will be dere for u de.. so u mus be brave and most importantly, follow your heart.
REALLY!

sun 09/12
nth much.. had william tuition.. as usual, he was veh irritating.. haha.
and after tuition, we went to eat kfc together.. haha. cos the two of us was veh hungry at de start of tuition le.. den after tuition, we went down tampines to eat.. haha!

mon 10/12
ms huang woke me up so damn early la.. can't rmb wat she called me about.. gal, jus bcos u gt school doesn't mean ii gt school lo.. haha.
den watch some youtube videos and went for tuition le..
reach home at 8pm. i left home at 2.30 la.. cos mon gt two tuition. lols.

nothing much.. quite boring dae.

tue 11/12
went watch with juan - The Golden Compass

superb nice show!
i wan buy the books le!!

nothing to blog about..
later gt william's tuition and piano lesson!!
ii'm quite excited!

life's still a bore.. but am glad dere's so mani entertainments.

2007-12-08T11:20:00.000+08:00

de crazy things we do when we are together..

it was in MNG shop la..
and we actually could take this photo..

juan, take care ya
and good luck wif ur sharing session on wed!

i think u are doin a brilliant topic.. =)

2007-12-07T01:46:00.000+08:00

i don noe what i am doin animore..

one minute ii was sure that ii would love to go this route.. den de next, ii am startin to doubt myself..

it is indeed true that ii'm now free from everything.. but jus feel that de longer ii'm nt tied to all these, ii feel abit lost..

done so mani things these few days but jus so lazy to blog.. shall briefly go thru?

1) eat dinner wif hy.wz.juan at de old airport road dere.. quite nice! and somemore the trip quite funny.. lols.

cos wz had no coupon den no choice had to buy from someone as the commission lady might fine him. haha!

juan came up wif dis de.. and ii'm pretty sure she's right abt de commission part.. de monster.

nwe, slacked at de van till 9m b4 we go out.. haha.
eat food and soon was home swt home.

2) celebrate dod0 bdae. haha. and quite funny cos dat dae fish and co was also celebrating its 9th bdae.. so ask dod0 to celebrate wif dem..

think d0d0 was embarrassed.. imagine de whole restaurant celebrating wif her?? haha. well it's a happy memory!

as usual, juan acting cute..
and ii was playing my fone.. smsin somebody.. haha!

after dinner, me.juan.hy went meet wz and wee keong to watch hitman.
stupid show. didn't even understand.

after show, wee keong sent us home.. de car so nice to sit.. haha.
meet li to pass her ky present.. crap awhile and went back home.

3) started tuition wif 2 kids.
- sec2 math
-pri6 eng.math.science

nicole, de sec2 kid is veh cute and after 1 lesson, she trusts me le lars. so touched. haha. juan still dare say she no taste. hrumpf!

and likewise de pri6 kid, de rapport btn us is also nt bad.. haha.

but pri sk0ol syallbus quite hard sia.. he gave me 2 math qn and ii don noe how to do!!
ii think like nobody business and finally gave up.

and ask hy!! and she solved it easily..
my fren is jus so so intelligent.. haha. no wonder ii'm pretty smart. haha. some of her intelligence passed to me..
seriously, girl, u shld have gone jc.. and now u can slack like me!!

4) went tp to celebrate shen's bdae!! was so nervous la when walking along the pathways cos ii wasn't prepared at all.. haa..

and ya he was surprised to see so many of us!! and we sing and played de cake.. a simple celebration but ii noe it jus warmed de heart. =)

5) meeting juan tml to shop at century sq! haha. cos open le den haven shopped dere.. and dere realli looks like got alot of things to buy!

will be meetin her at 5pm.. after william's tuition. he die die wan it 3pm..
so no choice.. haha.

hmm, shld ii accept? haha..
and sat i shld go escape? feel like goin but no money sia.

and ii still need dye my hair.. buy that gorgeous bag+ find a nice pair of shoes.

ii need to teach more kids! and find a weekend job.

i'm slowly waddling out of this mess and lookin at de beautiful ocean once more..

juan,
dere's truely alot of fishes out there, along wif a car! haha.

2007-12-04T14:16:00.000+08:00

2 can play the game.

i accept u.

2007-11-27T13:46:00.000+08:00

i noe the truth le.

and ii thank my frens for nt tellin me till now.. for it would simply break my hart.
and den ii wouldn't have de motivation to go on..

wo hen bu fu!
i'm sick and tired of dis!!!

wtf?
wat was ii? a bloody chucked off toy?
jus one bloody week was all u needed.

all de excuses and crap that u came up with are jus nth but lies.
and guess wat?
i am seeing the light but yet ii still am unable to move on..

i seriously hate myself.
why did ii fall so deep?
and now with bruises all over, i still am nt giving up.

can anibody just help me?

2007-11-23T14:59:00.000+08:00

well, ii'm finalli done with the As le..

and de feeling is inexplainable..
bcos it realli feels damn good to let down the burden..
as said so many times, ii have struggled countlessly throughout the whole journey.

but oh well.. life's better now.. haha!!

and ii finally made a decision le.. rejecting doesn't mean ii'm not over but rather, i don wan.. cos it's kind of freaky and scary.. haha..
but "The Kingdom" was a nice show..

i'm sprouting nonsense again.. wonder who will understand?

Also, ii rejected my event coordinator job le.. cos it's not wat ii wanted lo.. mus walk till veh lei and it's veh ma fan..
don like de job at all.

but was abit scared when ii called to reject la.. lols.

have accepted 2 tuition jobs.. haha.
1) Simei Rise..
2) Tampines St11

abit uncertain abt the Tampines one.. cos it's like mus committ alot.. 3 times a week lo.. and de pay is jus $250.

but the reason ii accepted was bcos, the poor family like needed help.. i don noe lei.. jus gt the feeling to help..
nvm ba, ii teach 1 month first lo..

if cannot den too bad..
and nwe, the tuition agency takes $100.. so ii am able to take $150 lo..
but realli hen bu hua.

simei one is nt bad.. de family quite nice and de son listens to me..

but the son is bigger than me! he's indo-chinese, freaking rich, and is older than me la..
abit weird. haha.

various things have happened.
1) went to book driving wif ms choo. li, jia you! we can pass at 1st time de!!
mus study the book wors.

2) went sing k wif 7dwarfs!!! it's been so long since we met la.. and finally As last day, we met up.. went shopping and after dat went sing k.. haha.

and wz so nice la.. fetch us home!! thanks so much.. played wif vero again.. ii like dogs..

hy, 4got to tell you.. if u wan to groom ur pet, ii know where can.. yishun..
dere de environment not bad..
and ii help u check for vero le.. $50dollars. is it ex?? if u think okie, den tell me k? ii take for u the namecard also.. haha!

3) went for singtel interview!
de pay nt bad plus ii like de environment! hope they picked both li and me!!

den after dat, went chinatown to interview for the promoting of french liquor..
but ii don like.. is like training for 3months and work at airport, DFS. dat means the criteria is veh stringent and they confirm pounce on ppl to stand straight and everything.. so don wan.. even though pay is $8/hr

went eat and after dat was shoppin at chinatown.. brought a handmade necklace.. not bad la.. and a top.. haha.. li also brought a top.. quite nice also.. and even though we only shop for 3hrs, our legs were veh veh suan.. haha..
home after dat..

nth le ba?
can't rmb le..
nwe, 7dwarfs+evil queen,

wan meet u? we can go settler's cafe!! we nv go as one group before lo.. haha. so see when ur holidays end den we go together k? tag at my blog!

later goin out again! hahas.
life is bliss.

2007-11-20T01:48:00.000+08:00

挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底你能不能收到它
天有点冷风有点大城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天, 我得一个人走回家

问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜褃回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗

你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗
心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬
昨天远了明天还长回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下

问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜褃回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗

你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗忙碌吗累吗
心还会痛吗如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

the song complements my feelins..
and the words that ii wanna sae for so long..
in jus a few hrs, my A level journey will end le..

and ii have managed it w/o u.

ii have walked out from ur shadow le.. and learn to accept everything..
to learn that laugh, cry and hope isn't something that always have to be associated with you..

and finally jus to forget the woes of yesterday.

2months of torture, and always on de brink of death, ii managed to wake up and tell myself it's not worth it..

granted, everyone was here wif me.. but ii was still so lonely, books is hardly a nice companion ar.. lols.

everyday ii forced myself to forget abt everything and concentrate on my books.. but please, who is able to face hours on physics?

A level journey passed quite slow and fast, as ii would reasoned out.. at first it was freakin fast and suddenly it came.. but when it finalli start, it dragged on like 4eva.

ii've grown up alot in this journey.. i learnt to fall back on nothing.. and jus have to depend on myself.. cos ii was freakin abandoned.. =(

lookin back, dis is one chapter that ii would closed and keep it deep inside my heart..

for those who knew wat the hell happened, would know how many times my heart broke in jus these few months.. and in the midst, while sewing back the wounds, having de burden to study.

and ii do have to thank dear FATS for that.. ii mean here she is, living in hougang, comin all the wae to Tampines to mug wif me.. and still earlier than me, who is supposedly living in the neighbourhood.
and poor us, always having to eat fast food.. she's already on diet and still have to eat so much fatty food..
unlike me, haha!! ii'm a slim slim gal, rite fateha?? haha.

oh well, it's all over..
ii have just learn to see de world better and unfortunately become much cynical abt how de way life works..

meeting up all my dearies tml..
wonder if ii am able to speak up?

2007-11-07T11:13:00.000+08:00

2weeks of exams have passed.

and ii feel so lonely each day.

ii don noe wat to do now la..
ytd after a hard day of exams, ii don noe where to go.

it's like suddenly ii have no frens at all..
and no purpose in life.

and dis kind of feelin is scary..

ii used to have everything. and now ii don't.
everyone is gradually leaving me.

2007-11-02T20:23:00.000+08:00

jus a small small post.. so that li says she can read my blog.. lols.
watever.

nth has changed..
A'level is like here..

finished
phy paper3
gp paper 1
gp paper 2
math paper 1

=)

now goin to mac to mug wif jing feng.
lols.

nov20th is coming!!
after dat it's freedom.

a fren has left my world and it's not even my fault?? ii seriousli don noe wat de hell is wrong wif de things ii did..

thank god ii have hy.juan.li to stick beside me or ii realli will die..
cos ii cannot fathom her at all..
it hurts me that de yrs of frenship has jus gone done.. all bcos of a him?

watever.

how can someone simply fail standing broad jump.. lols.
and dat leaves me christmas ALONE..
hrumpf.

do u think can book out?? no idea. wait and see. haha!

new yr is celebrating wif N-zire!
think we havin chalet.. lols. if all goes well.. ii will be eating bbq food cooked by dear nigel. haha..

ii'm so so sad.. nov 20th dere's no one to accompany me la..
ms choo. u better don go sk0ol dat dae okie? haha..

ii realli hope it would be resolved.
BOTH things.

and maybe if ii'm super nice dis yr, NS can be postponed to 26th??
wahahaha..

seriousli, it's so sad..

okie, jingfeng called me le!!
byebye!!

my frens, meet up after nov20th k!!

2007-10-01T23:24:00.000+08:00

i can't study so here ii am blogging abit

gotten back my prelim results.
and end up ii was so damn shocked by my results..

and for de first time in my life, ii cried over my results..

all thruout the years in sec school, ii've gotten bad results but ii have never believe in crying.. de theory of " no point crying over spilt milk" was ingrained in my head and mind.. but at jc2 prelim, ii did broke down.

de shock of getting such horrendous results was terrible and made me think dat me going to jc wasn't worth it..

i gave up on my
1) vanity
2) freedom
3) time spend with my frens
4) and him.

and trust me, it was not a bargain. it didn't even came close.

i wonder if ii were to be given a chance to live my life again, which route will ii chose?
poly ii guess
and maybe things would have worked out differently.

but as hy says, some things are meant to be.
so i guess ii will never know.

ii'm slowly walking out from the hurt and pain that ii have experienced..

my tpjc fren said to me, " yiqi u are realli strong, ii mean u are still able to pass ur prelim and not
have tears pouring down everyday"

de statement is wrong, it is just that fact she did not see me break down and cry like mad.

only nigel did.
juan.li.jr.ky were de few dat ii told dem, de rest ii didn't for it was jus too hard to say it again?

and ii really do thank my frens for their efforts and everything.. and finally after so long, ii've thot it through already..

actually it was hy who let me see the light.. cos when ii was still mourning, it was she who held her hand and lead me out of this endless tunnel and ii do thank her for that.

de rest of my frens, N-zire, 7dwarfs+evil queen.. it was jus the presence of you guys and dat makes me blessed dat ii have you by my side..

i chose my route and sometimes ii did strive in jc.. ii did alright for math.chem. only suck in phy and gp. lit is improving, gp has improved although not much. considering ii fail again!! =( ii passed my essay but failed paper2.

jing feng told me today dat ii do well in jc and ii was like huh?? how am ii doin well if ii have gotten veh veh bad grades this time round??

and she was like, u got da ji ma.. diff.. she den sigh and lament that she did not have any deep impact and yet she is still scoriin that same grade thruout.

and ya ii'm worrying like mad.. at dis kind of grade, ii can't beat A level, let alone entering a university..
there is a high probabilty that ii might retain or be a yr1 in TP.

god pls help me.
i jus wish ii knew how to get u out of my system.
becos u jus keep infilitrating in when ii jus managed to shut u out..

but the hurt is definitely much lesser now.. and this ii have got to thank all my frens. =)
ii'm alright now, so no msg of, " dear, are you alright? take care!" k?
and instead, " qi, jia you for As!"

rmb my A level is on 30th oct!! mus msg me wors.. haha!

2007-09-12T17:51:00.000+08:00

hmmm..

i don noe la.. i actualli had so much things to say but now faced with a computer, i'm suddenli loss for words.

i'm jus typing randomly and straightening out the crazed thots that resides in my mind.

i'm damn scared.
do u noe now ii'm now alone in this big vast world already?
dere's nobody to accompany me le..

to walk dis route with me..

bcos you left.

2yrs plus relationship.

it jus waned off..

it was you who wooed me vigorously and despite all my frens warnins, i go against their wishes.
fell hook, line and slinker for u.

all ur lies. condemned actions , to me as long as there's love, ii'm willing to close an eye.

but after so long, ii finalli realised that thru0ut ii'm jus ur job. ur responsibility.
it's isn't fair that u can jus brush me off with " single hood is better for me"

and leave me bent and broken. {ha! this phase is from great ex. my lit paper!}

how am ii supposed to continue on this route? u have taken a huge part of me away..
i hate myself more dan anithing..

bcos ii realli thot dat there were be happily ever after.
i guess de idea that u grilled in me was wrong all along.

ur priority may have shifted.but mine hasn't and dat's why ii hate myself even more.

my frens are furious.
and i were dem, i will be too..

i'm not ur toy nor ur job to begin with..
i am a person who has feelings and emotions.

i've been considered as a rash person, but the fact that when it comes to you, ii will double check my tone b4 talkiin to u.. becos ii care 4 u.

unlike u, who can say anything u wan and get away with it.

oh well, it's gone..

meeting li on fri.. eatiin lunch wif her.. lols.

saturday is de day.. i wonder wat ii will do.

2007-08-21T10:05:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry

for de hurt cause.

i don noe wat i am doin anymore..
can someone hold my hand lead me out of this darkness?

i have been trapped in this tunnel for so long..
who is able to find me and reach out?

i guess i jus have to depend on myself.

once again, de previous post doesn't mean anithing.
frustation jus rules my life now.

2007-08-20T16:11:00.000+08:00

i noe i may always appear so brave that nobody realise what i am facing..

de work is killing me but who can belive me? nobody.
life is horrible.

i barely have time for myself. so why can't everybody understand?? it's not as if ii wan to be shut inside my hse and be a freakin zombie ok?

don't u ever stop to wonder how much ii wan to go out with you ppl? to be able to dress nicely and walk walk, to shop shop.

don't u ever wonder y my bdae wish was to do well for A'level? it nv changed with so mani cakes brought to me..

and my 2nd wish was to still be with you guys and enjoy life
for ii noe sec frens are de best u can ever have.

how mani ppl actualli noe dat it's been so long since ii went shoppin? or even have a full 8hrs sleep?

and jus how much u noe of the stress ii am facing? do u noe if my Alevels suck ii have absolutely nth to fall back?

olevel cert v.s poly diplomate
which wiseass boss would choose de former?

ii ch0se my route, regret it like hell
but TOO BAD!
ii have to stick with it. and make de best of everything.

and at de back of my mind, ii always thot dat no matter wat ii still have my bf and my frens to support and encourage me.

i'm tired of saying le.. but if you knew how much ii wan to go out slack, watch movie or shopping, you wouldn't say such words.
cos it truely hurts.

70 days to A'level!!
i'm panickin like hell. and yet ii have to deal with dis nonsense.

nobody understands me. do u noe how mani dates ii have cancelled on et?? how each time my heart pains whenever ii can't meet him? a week ii can only see him for 1 day, 3hrs. and den ii have to rush off le..

and yet ii'm not complaining cos dis is de last lap.
listenin to de blog song, it complements my feelins.

i seriously hope it gets to de pretty head of urs.
for if ur hart is cold from all dese, den mine have long been dead.

2007-07-26T23:20:00.001+08:00

understatement.

these few weeks have been horrible.. there's so much things to do and so little time for me to complete and so as usual, ii have been reducing my sleeping time..

omg, it's been so long since ii slept for a full 8hrs?
ii'm tired..

now timetable has collapse so lessons end like 9-11plus am? but the slight problem is there's afternoon block periods which conducts lectures and yes, it's compulsory.. so sk0ol ends at 4.30 everyday except mon and fri!

11.50-m0n
12.30-fri
smiles smiles..
* ha! like i am goin to go home early these days..

it's like now, i don realli care about rushing out of the school gate anymore.. it doesn't matter as ii will be studying in the library till 9pm.. yes, the library is extending to 9pm everyday with selected teachers on duty, so it's like mini consultations..

isn't that sweet and nice of the teachers?

i realli find this arrangement uself and condusive as beside air-con, there are teachers to s0lve one's doubt easily!
onli ii don realli like studyin la..

been staying back dis week and finalli tmr.. ii'm not!!

meeting my boyfriend!!

we had a very nice date planned out but now, all ii wan is to sleep.. so we changed our entire plans and jus to watch vcd- hostel2~ and den sleep till nite..

somehow ii find dis date enjoying..

see how jc students become??

ii don rmb muggin so hard b4 in my entire life..

but then, 95days till my bloody A's

and den ii;m a freee woman..

ii promise myself ii'm so goin to let myself wild..

and dis yr my bdae sucks la!
how am ii goin to celebrate if the exams are so near??
cos even now, writin a blog entry is makin me so guilty for nt hitting the books le..

ii better go read my gr8 ex..

and yes, finalli friday's comiin!!!! ii've waited wat seems like an eternity for this..

admittedly 0'level was bad, promos in j1 was horrible but prelims are like ten times as worse.. so wat's to say about A'level?

ii don wanna noe..

and fcuk it's goin to be 94days soon!!!!

2007-06-29T23:16:00.000+08:00

in a relationship, it doesn't matter how long they were together
it's about knowing each other

to tell de truth, ii was abit shocked to see this quote from a random website as it fully describes my situation.

i feel lost.
ii realli do..

as ii have chose de route that does not need me to adapt to another new surrounding, ii can still live in my comfort zone, always having a ear beside me. a shoulder to lean on..

but, is this de right choice?

ii don noe.

if onli you would showed more warmth to me, so that all my insecurities would be gone..

on a brighter note, exam is finalli over le!!!
no more late nites till 4am..

ii can sleep at 12!

but.. but..
onli for a week

cos after that the trend is resume again although better sleep at 2am..

cos 2 mths to prelims
4 mths to A'level

and for the endless time, ii'm getting worried.

2007-06-25T18:59:00.001+08:00

i'm dying.

after so long of non-bloggin de first thing ii type is death approachiing..

wat de hell is wrong wif my life??

ppl, fri iim free.. anione wan go eat wif me?
i wan a good meal seein that for this week iim eatiing cup noodles every single nite..

i will go bald. =(

lackiin of sleep.. as always..

dey say one need to have 8hrs daily.. but if u are young, 6hrs is still alright
normalli my hours of sleep have always been reduced to 4-5hrs

now it's 3hrs..

can't wait for sat..
a hot date planned! lols.

2007-06-07T23:31:00.000+08:00

dis is quite different from de usual me, ii guess. lols.

no prize for guessin y ii am lookin like dat.. it's dance.. and ii realli think kelvin, the guy beside me looks good. hahas.

so much has changed since ii last blog.. and if u noe what has happened to my life.. i would realli like to say thank you to all of u that has stayed by my side, encouraging me..

it is realli thru these tymes that ii'm thankful that while ii was blissfulli in love, ii have nv forsaken my frens and they have neither forsaken me too. no matter how freakin busy we both are.

secondary sk0ol frens are really the best, they are like ur pavilion.. anithing that matters, a call is all u need.. jc while the other hand are more of gf/bf material.. lols. though ii do have some close knit jc frens..

i noe it's unglam being a pavilion but to all my close frens, thanks for being mine..

u noe hu u are.

don wish to blog about what happened as any stranger in de world can jus click on it and noe wat happen.. and it kind of ivades ur privacy. ii was thinkiin of putting password to my blog. but then ii realised, ii don noe how.. so ii realli need someone to teach me.. haha.

all ii have to say iss, throughout the years

wat ii thot. imagine, dream and feel it was, wasn't

my perfect world shattered on thur. 310507

sudddenly everything was nt alright.. everything was in total darkness.. the light that had always shine me through the entire years suddenly went out. ii was lost. pitch black. the hand that had always held on to me, ii chose to break free.. for holdin on was immense pain in my heart.

every second, ii can hear other voice of me, taunting me sayin that, it was my fault for nt believing in me. while de other was tryin desperately to calm down..

the whole taxi ride.. ii was shiveriin wif fear.. i cannot believe what jus unfold.. and ii could nt cry.. it was more of angry and disappointed.

later back home, de phone calls.. ii could nt think straight. and fri was de last straw..

cried like nobody's business for a solid 3hrs and dis tyme someone did pei me cry..dere we were crying and shouting

and ii did smth ii nv imagined ii would do in all my life..

where did ii find de courage?

juan say ii hao li hai.. lols.

but de slap on my face will take a long long time to heal..

ii don noe. wat to do to ensure that everything will be alright.. uncertainty fills my day every second of my life.. no longer am ii de confident gal that smiles happily everyday..

evry step ii take, requires alot of thinking. ii can no longer jus say what ii feel like sayin or de consequences are too much to bear..

june15.. will it mark a memorable day?

cos ii noe 3rd of Aug no longer exists..

2007-05-20T03:37:00.000+08:00

a lack of social life..

DON ask me if it was true if one goes jc..
ii look at him and jus smiled.. saying if you are a marvelous, you are still able to fork out some time for oneself.

dat's wat ii'm tryiin to d0 ever since year2.
so unfortunately, hereby ii conclude ii'm no marvelo myself..

ii'm suffocatiing from lack of sleep.energy and everything..
having overdosages of GP. hw. dance and GP and dance and GP again..

cos ii'm determined to pass dis paper..

he desperately wans to go jc.. can see from his tone and all, he's excited and here ii am wanting desperately to get out.
dramatic irony.

ii wan see my frens but at de same time, ii don wan cos ii will have the guilty feeliin when ii go home, seeing my PILES of hw.

ii wan see darlin.. and hug him now.. it's been a week since ii met him? don ask me y, days jus simply flew by and b4 ii knew it, a week has gone..
it's nt de same thru a bloody f0ne. no matter how nice de f0ne is.. a 6280 and a Dopod 818.

dat f0ne of his is stupid cos it's too difficult to use.. lols.

and talkiin abt sleep, ii better sleep soon. it's 4am. ii came online jus to check my tpjc mail and research on chem stuff..

darlin cai rong de.
ii realli miss you alot.
u also ba?

ii realli realli hen xiang nian ni..
smell smell.

2007-04-27T12:01:00.000+08:00

ii'm so so so HAPPY!!!!!!!

and ii shall blog here to share my joy! lols.

1) it's de end 0f de week!! jus noein the fact is enuff to bring joy to all jc students hu have slog so hard dis week.

i mean, dis week has been horrible, ii am onli sleepiin 4-5 hrs everyday! with projects comiin up, syf competition, tests are being given out and extra lessons to attend. so basically, dis week has been horrible. so am ii glad to be savouring the friday mood. =)

2) SYF dance competition is finalli over!!! no more stayiin back and trainiin till so bloody loong! like leaving the sk0ol compound at 8plus is not exactly desirable to me.. but the long hours paid off.. it realli did for, tpjc modern dance got GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!

can you believe it???? it's de highest glory among all la.. ii have nv gotten it in my whole life cos drama in sec sk0ol was cop and bronze.

dance was like a new league in my life and ii joined bcos ii wanted smth to write for my SGC, as dis is a an achievment.. but as months flew by, ii gradualli loved de dance as a CCA and adored the people dere.. so when our president told us our results, everyone of us screamed and burst into tears.. huggiin and cryiing and smiliin at de same time..
dis memory of mine will be precious to me when ii leave tpjc.

when jasmine (dance president) said gold, we already screamed but suddenli, she shouted over the mayhem sayiin, it's GOLD WITH HONOURS! "

as a result, we get to stand on stage and sing the national anthem today.. dis is like a reward for gettiin such marvellous results. although abit paiseh la.. lols. well, this chapter of dance is goiin to end as now, it's A'levels that is pressing..

de image of us cryiin and smiliin and hugging each other will 4eva be in my hart. =)

3) talkiin about A'levels, my physics A'level practical is finalli over!! cos in jc, our practicals are stretched over two years in a total of 5 practicals.. de total mark constitutes 20% of the total A'level score and now it's finalli done!!
no more mugging for SPA (science practical assesment) le as it realli is veh torturous. lols.

and dat's about all..
was supposed to have 1 happy thing to blog but now don't have le..
was supposed to meet darlin today but end up he goin out with his ma to buy new phone so we are meetiin tml lo.. last min change plan, ii have nowhere to go today.. kinda sad la..

somemore, ii burnt my hand while doiin chem SPA and ii realli wanted him to see.. it's been so long since we meet up lo.. =(

but oh well, ii guess ii will survive.. later gt gp remedial at 12.30pm for an hour and ii will be home le.. hen sad lei!!! it's fri lo.. btw, ii passed my last compo. 25/50 lols.

maybe go find N-zire later? as shen jus msg me, 6pm meet at nigel hse block downstair.. goin crash at sonn's hse? de same old days la.. haha.

side note: my hand is realli veh painful!! it's burnt la..

side side note: ii'm having a craviin for durians at the bugis there, anyone wan to go also? ms choo?? and li, don't forget our date wors.. 05/05/07

side side side note: huiying be alright kies? we will be meetiin up soon le.. mus take care and anything can call me wors.. ii should be free now le since dance is finalli over!

ii'm still veh happy abt de results.. and ii'm quite proud of myself for learnin at scratch since ii have no dance background. lols. and i'm was veh veh nervous when it was competition time, de first time la even though ii have participated in syf b4.. ii guess when u realli put in effort, u will be realli realli scared..

still talkiin abt dance, ii feel that after so long of practices, when on stage it feel realli realli good preformiin.. it's like me and my frens were enjoyiin the piece and danced like no tomorrow? lols. so round up.. tpjc modern dance rocks!!

our sk0ol performiin arts now ranks like dat..

GOLD WITH HONOURS- modern dance. guitar
GOLD- indian dance
SILVER- chinese dance
BRONZE- malay dance..

so modern dance is de best!! hahas..

ok gtg.. see u people soon!

2007-04-14T19:34:00.000+08:00

still a little tyme left before my whole family goes out to eat dinner so ii'm bloggiin..

random thots.

dance syf is killiing me.
practices are 4days! mon.tue.thu.fri. all 3hrs each!

but come next week, it will be 6days. mon.tue.wed.thu.fri.sat.

arrgh!

and offline here ii g0..

ii'm still hurt and sad! but d0 u noe?
or de most impt qn. do u realli care?

2007-04-13T22:30:00.000+08:00

i jus don't understand..

a phone call, and he broke into such a big smile. sayiing ,"other girl call" when his gf was beside him.

de call was jus a fren. close fren perhaps. but does one really need to break into a big smile?
and quickly send his gf home bcos he wan to go find her?? as she would be alone waitiing.

wat about the girlfren?? how long have dey meet up?
went up de lift and off he goes.

and when he knew the girl was mad at him, did he bother?
he went off, walking ever so quickly bcos she was waitiing.

jus wat's wrong with the guy?

or rather.. is de girl too senstitive?

2007-04-08T17:57:00.000+08:00

lalalalalala..

ytd was realli a fun day!!
cos met de 7dwarfs+evil queen.. onli ky didn't make it cos she had to go back sk0ol for lessons.. poor thing la..

nwe, was supposed to meet at 12.45pm.. but by de tyme everione reached, it was goiin to be 2pm!
mental note: next tyme do not be so punctual.. ii should have known.. lols.

nwe, poor d0do, she was de latest so as a result, ii gt a free Coco-cola freeze.. =)
next tyme de law would be like dat le.. so gals, don't be late wor..

went viv0 and we were on de train makiin such a big din la.. did some stupid stuff that constitutes passin msg on de train.. huiying lose lo. she nv pass to de auntie beside her.. HAHA.

reach dere, shopped shopped awhile and me and hy's stomach was veh hnugry.. realised everione was hnugry too. ate long john.. and we talked abt hy and celest S&K job..saw a jacket veh nice.. 69bucks!

soon shopped awhile more, and went watch movie.. the no 23.. startiin damn confusiin..but after awhile understand le.. de endiin was veh unexpected. and after de movie went drink starbucks..

it was a fun day.. and ii reached home bath.. was doiin hw when ii suddenli looked at my page no.. guess wat was it?? 23!
den ii realised ii dis hw was term2wk3!! i written it on my paper..cos need pass up wk by wk de.

ii was freaked out la.. haha.

friday.
went bugis to find darlin after he finish work.. hys collegue damn cute, when we wan go off, she keep shoutiin " eng teck bye bye! eng teck bye bye! " was veh loud lo.. lols. think she too bored le..

went eat ma la huo guo.. ya jus de two of us.. beng and li were like askiin me. how come like dat, so wierd lo..
but actualli hai hao lei.. lols. enjoyed de dinner and soon we went back..

meet beng at tm.. and travelled home to meet li at downstair cos we were planniin to meet dat bdae gal de.. lols.in de end, we talked and slacked awhile.. and homed.

okie, nth much..

sharon.beng.li when we meetiin up???

2007-04-01T16:02:00.000+08:00

been so long since ii blog!!

so here are some updates as usual.. to let my frens noe where de hell ii am.. lols.

seriousli, N-zire dey all have been telliin me i have been MIA-ing.. its been so long since ii see dem.. as for beng and poon, its also veh long!!

so, let see,

Event 1: 12th March 2007

went swimming with darlin after math test cos end up dance was cancelled!! =) and after dat went eat de japanese restaurant outside dere.. hai hao la.. normal normal. well actualli kinda bad.. lols. after dat home sweet home le lo.. nth to do ar.. after swimmin veh tired le.. ii gt a nice tan also.. hahas.

Event 2: 15th March 2007

North light camp.. it was my Service Learning Project and we had to organise a camp for dese students.. ii was in drama group and we played charade plus dance improvisations.. overall de camp was successful.. de people were happy, ii am happy too as ii finished my SL le.. dat is 2 achievements completed and 1 left to go.. SYF dance. =X

went dance after dat at 5.30pm.. danced awhile and ii torn my costume?? wat de hell la.. after dat met darlin at interchange and we went eat fish and co.. lols.veh nice .. de seafod platter plus de sea monkey freeze.. after dat was home le.. cos next day ii still got sk0ol.. though it was de holiday week, but for me, its like, wat holiday?? since ii came back sk0ol everiday!!

Event 3: 17th March 2007

N-zire bbq!! reach east coast at 2plus.. rode all de way to bedok jetty and come back.. had fun!
noe smth, talked to shawn and sc alot of tymes.. nice gatheriin!! =)

Event 4 : 24th March 2007

N-zire bowling competition!! lols. dey didnt win though.. de rest too li hai for dem le.. lols. but ii saw my senior yong shearn.. he won though.. first! li hai hor.. lols.

after dat was raining, we had to ling yu la.. lols. reach home at abt 1plus..
was a special day for me and darlin cos it was de 2nd year! lols.

cant rmb where was he. ii think at e3 chalet.. lols.

Event 5 : 28th March 2007

meet li at downstair and eat roti prata.. were gossipiin all de way la.. so long nv see her so mus update awhile.. but we talked abt other ppl dan wat happened to us.. lols.

but, ii noe she gt or cheng on her leg and she knew ii was late on tue.. lols.

she is one girl ii will miss everiday when ii go sk0ol la.. lols. but li, ur head don swell so big hor.. lols.

Event 6 : 30th March 2007

ended sk0ol at 1.45pm.. went home, bathe and was out again.. on de way buy chicken chop for darlin and me, li saw me.. shouted across de road.. lols.

so after buyiin de chicken chop for us, cabbed to darlin hse.. thank god ii cabbed la.. cos halfway it started to rain like wat.. so damn heavy.. darlin come down find me with an umbrella..lols. and after goiin so mani tymes to hys hse, ii still don noe how to go.. lols. its damn confusing la.. so mani linkways.. and raining make it worse.. u cannot cut across..

reached hys hse.. ate chicken chop. and watch tv.. sleep while he went to bath.. woke up, he was playing 02jam.. lols. he see me wake up he say he sleepy and we both went back to sleep.. lols.

by de tyme we left hys hse it was 10.30pm ba? can;t rmb.. took 27 and alight at 700plus.. went eat at de coffee shop dere.. and saw nicholas and hys frens.. lols. walked back to jy dere.. and li saw me again..

ii swear her free tyme is spent on finding where ii am..lols.

de gal damn rich.. go see movie also wan take cab.. lols. no choice me and et no money.. we always take bus.. but he sends me home.. LOLS.

dat is de end!!
jus realised ii cannot meet darlin till next fri.. iim depressed.. =(

and dat is not full day la.. cos he workiin on morning.. no choice, is guan yin bdae.. bencoolen sure alot of pple de.. findiin hym at nite lo.. no sk0ol dat day cos it is GOOD FRIDAY..

meetiin 7dwarfs on 7th april! =)
meetiin two frens on 3rd April!

darlin was like wat?? it is 3rd lei.. u don wan meet me ar..
but no choice.. me plus 2 frens gt smt impt to do.. lols.

2007-03-07T22:03:00.000+08:00

been feelin the urge to blog so here ii am..lols.

read my last post and ii felt even overwhelmed by the tone and lauguage ii used..
ii guess ii was jus too pissed after a long long day..
so don't get too upset over readiin it.. dis are jus my thots.

some updates.. but dey seem kinda old now..

1) ii fell!!! [28th FEB]
outside de tpjc gate wif like 20odd students witnessing it.. it was so mortifying and humilating!
and ii fell down twice!!

cos ii was walkiin hurriedly, and de next moment ii fell. classic?
but in de process of pickiin myself up, ii fell again..

so ii was practicalli lying on de ground.. oh my goodness.

blood was drippin but ii was so embarrassed dat ii jus kept on walkiin to de sk0ol.

so nwe, ii didn't cry till darlin come find me later.. it was so painful lars..

2) valentine's day? [14th FEB]

so long le.. but jus some updates la.. we went to ms clarity cafe and had our dinner.. ii don think ii enjoyed de food veh much..lols.

dere was dis soup nicknamed love potion but ii felt it was more like thicken peanut soup!
den came my main course- sea of love. but ii felt it was jus one tiny part of a fish along wif cai poh.. u noe those brown thingy dat we put on chi kuay? ya dat's de one. lols.
after dat was de dessert.. forgot de name le.. it was still alright. except de chocolate was more like vinegar sauce.. lols.

so overall ii didn't enjoyed de food dat much..lols. but dey gave us a couple mug as souvenir.. so nice of dem rite? lols.

3) huiying's celebration party! [13th FEB]

went down wif ky to find her after dance ended.. was like freakiin 7pm? can't remember.. onli know ii was realli drained out le.. as ii had physics A'level practical b4 dance.. den dance den hy..

went find dodo.li and we ate kfc.. wrote in de book dat doreen made.. and ii re-drawed someone's hair.. lols. de book damn nice la.. so after we met celest we went to billy bombers!

she was so surprised la dat she cried.. lols. ii guess she was super touched.. cos everyone except juan was dere.. she gave us de billy bombers vouchers.. next tyme can eat.. lols. took photos OUTSIDE a neo-print shop.. funni rite? lols.

after dat we talked awhile and she went off wif wz to sing k.. went home wif li. quite successful!

4) fatihha's dinner date! [2nd MARCH]

went out wif her to eat her a restaurant and u noe hu de main chef was?? her BF!!! it's like omg rite?? cos her bf is studying in Shatec.. dis is deir project.. and ii think her bf veh li hai ba.. cos it ain't easy to be a main chef la.. lols.

de food was veh veh nice.. expect de bean salad.. both of us are meat ppl.. so we left de plate like so full la..
de dessert was super delicious!! cinnamon cheese cake!! veh veh nice.

after dat darlin come find me.. didn't do much cos sat ii gt tuition, need to do hw..so we went home..

dat day ii also knew my chinese result!! =)

5) went out wif li and sharon to buy beng's pressie!! [1st MARCH]

met dem at 6.30 after gp test! de test was horrible la.. think ii flunked it.. veh veh difficult.

nwe, we walked ard tryin our hardest to buy de 18 pressie.. lols. wanted to buy a slippers for her but in de end it became mine. lols. nvm la. it's ripcurl.. me and darlin now weariin ripcurl's slippers le.. lols. ii brought for hym his valentine's pressie.

so after we finished it was 9.30.. went home and still managed to do tutorial!

6) went nigel's hse pai nian + beng's celebration.. [3rd MARCH]

went over to xfx hse at 5.50pm.. ate curry like last tyme.. joked and slacked around. after dat dey went sonn's hse gamble ii didn't.. cos ii haven done my gp essay which was due tml.

did awhile.. and after dat met sharon and li.. waited till 12midnite we go and surprise her.. went crazy abit at her hse.. keep takiin photos usiin de self-timer.. lols.

left her hse at ard 1am.. mug till 4am. and woke up next day at 8am!

and ii think dat's abt all?
see my 6 things onli got 1 dat comprises of my bf.. realli have no time to go shoppin le.. we still meet up but is go eat dinner and den home for me. haix.

okie, ii shall go and do my tutorial..
today's stretchiin was terrible!!
cos he was pushiin me till my legs were 180 degree!!

next week is march's holidays le!! but guess de amt of days ii have to go back?? 5days!!! is dat insane or wat???

mon
8.30-10am: Math faculty test
10-12noon: Math lecture
12-3pm: dance

tue
9-12noon: dance
10-12noon: phy extra lesson!
12.30-1.30pm: service learning meetiing
12-1pm: dance orientation for JC1s.

wed
9-12noon: dance

thu
8-6pm: service learning project

fri
10-2pm: lit extra lesson

now u all can see how damn bloody busi ii am?? some of de things even clashes la..
jc life suxs la.

okie, now
byebye.. miss darlin. nvm, fri we are meetiin to go see "happily Never after!" =)
ii seriousli have a thing for cartoons.

2007-03-05T19:05:00.000+08:00

saw huiying's blog..

after readiin de small snippets of 2-3 sentences, ii realli feel i'm so wrongly accused.

gal,
if u realli think dat ii'm not caring or making an effort, den too bad ii can't redeem myself le.. but maybe now ii sae u will understand or think in my shoes.

do u noe, ever since de start of 2007,
how mani hrs ii've slept each day?
how mani hrs have been spent on de sk0ol?
how mani dates ii've sacrifice?
how mani movies ii have not watched?
how mani tymes ii have been to Orchard/Bugis?

u don noe.
ii tell u now,
ii've been sleepin for 4-5hrs everyday.
the earliest time i can leave tpjc- 6pm.
de no. of times ii shuang et and nv go out wif hym is countless. now he come sk0ol and send me home. we don slack animore!
for movies, i now onli watched max 2movies in a month.. a direct contrast of 4-6 tymes.
de last tyme ii went to Orchard is Feb10th. to buy et's valentine pressie.

do u noe jc is so stressful?
u cannot study one day b4 de test.
u have to study at least 2-3days.

not onli that, dance is killin me.. mon-wed is dance practice.3hrs for each practice.

ii don't wan join dis cca but i have no choice. ii need it for my cert.
as dis cert goes along wif my A'level cert..

wat's de use of gettin straights As n Bs if ur CCA is a blank sheet? thus ii need to join.

so please do understand dat ii am realli veh busi.. i mean if one sleeps only for a freakin 4hrs, it means something rite?

if ii don give a damn care, would i go find u on ur bdae?? would i spend 3hrs on u? ii wouldn't.. do u noe dat nite, ii studied till 2am plus cos ii next day got a test! but u are my impt fren so i don't mind at all.

fri ii didn't go becos ii already made plans. ii promised my tpjc frens to eat dinner wif dem le.. u can't expect me to fly kite rite? we made it since ages. becos we knew A'level mother tongue was comiin out dat day, we wanted to loosen ourselves up.

so don say dat ii don't care or doesn't make an effort.. i did. jus u didn' see.
let's face it, u don noe my life.
wat u said realli hurts.. and jus to tell u, ii think dis is de last tyme ii will explain myself..

next time if u still believe i don care, ii guess i won't bother already.

i treasure our frenship, and ii will make an effort to meet.. but do u noe u guys finished exam, mine jus started?

if u still treat ne as ur fren, we would forget abt dis, and ii realli hope dat next tyme won't happen..

got to go..was supposed to be studyiin chem! lols.

2007-03-03T22:57:00.000+08:00

i jus changed to de new blogger.. lols.

didn't change it cos ii was veh lazy.. but now u have to change in order to blog so ii went to change..

jus some quick updates dat ii'm veh veh happi abt!!

A'level chinese jus came out!!

and ii got an A.. de highest grade.. lols. and a distinction in Oral.

last tyme used to be A1, A2 and bla bla bla.. but syallbus changed so de highest was A..

happy wif my results though ii was practicalli goiin to faint when ii wanna receive my exam slip.. lols.

my ct had to ask me whether ii was alright or not la.. lols.

imagine jus one paper like dat.. how am ii goin to get my results slip for my rest of de papers??

ii will study hard.
ii swear to my God and to everione hu wans me to study hard..

so ii gtg le.. cos ii'm meetiin sharon and li for awhile..

and by de tyme beng reads this, she will be veh happi!! =)
happi bdae gerl.
hope u like de pressie.. =)

2007-02-22T22:04:00.000+08:00

a m0nth has passed since ii update.

nwe jus here for some quick msg.

Ms Choo Hui Li
Ms Lee Beng Yan
Ms Poon Si Hui
(in alphabetical 0rder)

WHEN ARE WE MEETIIN????
i thot someone say go pai nian on CHU SAN de??

ii busi lei, s0 u all mus ask me 0ut!!

let's wait till beng finished exam den we g0 eat dinner again..

s0 de three above menti0ned ppl, tag at my b0ard!!

nwe, are u all free on 24th?
at ard 1am?? l0ls.

we g0 eat prata.. =)))

0kie, dis p0st is purely f0r reminders.. l0ls.

h0pe dey see my bl0g..

we gt s0 much t0 update t0 each 0ther!!

side n0te: shujuan, are u alright??
ii'm here 0kie.. l0ves.

t0 all my p0ly frens, GOOD LUCK FOR UR EXAMS!!

and t0 darlin too ba.. l0ls. jia y0u!

tired and stressed.

2007-01-24T22:08:00.000+08:00

wow, ii'm so busi nowadays..

th0ugh lessons end super early dis yr, ii'm still stayiin back till 6 to 7 plus every mon-wed!
thu is extra lessons and all.. so basicalli i'm onli left wif fri..

but guess wat?
my gp tuition is on fri.

so my weekdays aren't free either ar!!

sat is chingay meetiins..

oh my gosh!

y did ii sign up so mani things dis yr??

it's all becos to make my cert look pretty. as at the end of the yr, one is supposed to write 3achievments.

and it's included in my A'level cert!
so ii better do smth nice l0..

and thus ii gt a CCA- m0dern dance.
damn stress.

actualli dis was my 1st 3 m0nth CCA. so now ii'm jus goiin back..

hate de instructor alot!! he's totalli bias against me.. maybe he stil has a grudge or wat..
did lots of stretchiin and so mani complicated dance moves.

ii swear by every trainin, ii get depressed..
esp wed.

cos is workout dae. and he totalli is bent on makin my life horrible.. =(
but ii guess ii have to survive till April..

ii hope ii got in the SYF.
haix. ii'm damn stress.

nv get in, ii have to worry for my cert.
got in, ii have to worry whether my steps are correct anot.. and risk bein scolded by the instructor.

dey say dere's every good and bad side of a coin.
ii don think so.

and de most ironic thing is while ii'm super busy, my bf is super free..
he has finalli quit balen0. l0ls.
and g0in lok for a job after hys exam..

so now, it's hym dat askin me when ii free, wat day he come find me.. lols.

life's nv PERFECT.

ii wish ii am in 1st three months.
at least, ii get to skip sk0ol whenever ii feel like it..

still remember last yr, ii won't go sk0ol whenever darlin off dat wk. cos last yr he work full-time, den got 1day off. and dat will be de day where ii nv go skool. lols.

ii'm so nice to accomodate to his workiin schedule.. lols.

but unfortunately, n0w cann0t la. ii guess ii can onli pray silently dat april is approachiin ba.

tests are comiin up like a blink of my eye.. and ii'm damn scared too..

but not as stress as dance..

okie, ii wanna go study some more le.. byebye

2007-01-14T20:44:00.000+08:00

ii had it wif the poem comparision.. fuck.
ii don't even understand wat the bloody poem was about..

it was talkiin abt Death and the attitude towards it..

and that's about how ii know it.. the rest ii;m completely blank..

kinda regret stoniin and sayiin confidently, "ii can rmb, no need copy" to myself..

now ii'm stuck wif my useless brains and a hopeless pen to write my poem comparision..

as for essay, de qn is like bloody hard. poverty lei.. how ar??

and ii must find 2 research articles that goes along wif my title..

jus for u peeps, my qn is, " should rich nations stop giving aid to poorer nations"

chim?
dis is considered easy le.. jus ii need my points and ii can write a 800 words compo.

so now, ii'm in de process of findiin!
found one article.. so left another one..
but ii'm runnin out of websites.

but wait!
ii found it.. =)

darlin hasn't fang gong ar.. okie, ii noe it's onli 9.55pm but ii wan to hear his voice or see hys msg.. arrgh!

ii simply jus HATE him..
but de love has overcome the hatred
so ii can onli jus be hopelessly in love wif him..

while he doesn't care a damn abt me!
=(

2007-01-14T17:34:00.000+08:00

An elderly Chinese woman had two large pots, each hung on the ends of a pole, which she carried across her neck.

One of the pots had a crack in it while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full portion of water, at the end of the long walk from the stream to the house, the cracked pot arrived only half full. For a full two years this went on daily, with the woman bringing home only one and a half pots of water.

Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments. But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it could only do half of what it had been made to do.

After 2 years of what it perceived to be bitter failure, it spoke to the woman one day by the stream. "I am ashamed of myself, because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your house."

The old woman smiled, "Did you notice that there are flowers on your side of the path, but not on the other pot's side?" "That's because I have always known about your flaw, so I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back, you water them. For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate the table.

is it meaningful?
dis taught us how we each have to overlook our flaws and focus on how the flaws can in turn produce our strengths.

would love to blog, but due to time constraint, can't la..
so ppl, jus enjoy dis short post till ii'm back to post a super long one..

ms choo. BE HAPPY! don't cry cry le.. u know if anione dares bully u, dey have to got past me de.. and ii promised ii will stand strong even if the other party is a bigger size than me.

sharon poon, we miss u at our small gatheriin.. de durians need someone to eat la.. we had to stuff ourselves okie, becos u didn't eat ur share. haha!

beng, don so stress and stop takiin fake mc wors. lols.

n-zire, sorri ii didn't make it! will come find u all dis fri.. ii noe u all miss me alot le! =)

hy, meet up soon k? ii wan pass u de vcd and talk crap wif u.. lols.

juan, how come now ii don get to see u so often la? wat have u been up to?

okie, have to do poem comparsion and essay by today!!

cai rong de, has it cross to ur head that it's been a week since u come find mie??
dumb dumb. =X

u are always workiin! hrumpf. lucky u have such an understandiin gf dat only rattles and complains on my blog and not to u!

u better bring me eat my pizza on tue or else, ii will really be mad!

bye bye peeps.

2007-01-06T00:12:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: August 13

You don't love lightly. For you, love is always a serious undertaking.
However, you are able to love many types of people. You can bring out the best in almost anyone.
Love surprises you often. You never know when or where you'll find it next.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 5

You are most compatible with people born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, and 31st of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

got this at someone's blog. was bloghoppin! and ii saw this thing long ago.. wanted to post it up like superlong. cos ii saw smth dat delights me!!

it's cos ii'm most compatible wif people born on the 4th!!!

darlin's birthdae is on the 4th of Sept!!

and becos ii'm born at aug 13 1989, ferlyn told me b4 abt my personality, saying alot of things but ii remembered de last and most impt thing she said,

my future husband is a VIRGO.

and darlin is!!

ii guess he's forever madly in love wif me le.. =)

nwe, here's the end of one week and ii have reached a conclusion..

ii don like being a j2 and ii hate taking topical tests.

and also the aircon in audi is bloody cold. even when ii'm wearing jackets, ii'm still freezing dere!

aircon is for enjoyment but de audi there is freezing my brain.. half the time i was busy keeping myself warm, or rather all the time.

ii've tried all sorts of methods.. but unfortunately, the bloody aircon would locate me at any point and blow straight at me.

nwe, side trackiin abit, this yr tymetable was so good to be true!!

it's like

mon- 3.50

tue- 12.30

wed -1.10

thur- 1.50

fri - 11.50

see?? it's like so much better as compared to last yr, everday ii ends after 3.30pm..

so except mon, the rest of the days are so nice.

at least that's wat ii thot.

until ky told me that the reason we are finishin skool so early is becos we will be having lots of after sk0ol tests. additional tutorials. make-up lectures.

no wonder.

and here ii was thinkiin j2's tymetable is even better than j1..

haix. ii wonder will ii still have the tyme to meet darlin after sk0ol? or will ii be too busy and tired that all ii wan to do is go home sleep?

ii will be free on fri and sat but he definitely won't.. so will we have tyme for each other?

ii realli hope so.

if not, at most ii will sacrifice my sleep and he will requests for off on fri..

he hasn't fang gong u noe? and it's like 1.39am.

ii hungry le.. after waitiing for him for so long.. surviving my boredom by using the net.

u seriousli can't expect me to study rite??

lols.

nwe, ii've finished phy.gp.lit.math now all that;s left is tue chem.

for the above mentioned papers, all ii have done is write crap inside. lols. didn't have the mood to do it and ii was like not prepared. cos ii haven been studying de holiday!

so ii've gt to kick the habit le.. from mon onwards, my attention will be focused and ii will strive my best..

as afterall, ii do wan to walk out of tpjc, smiling happily and running into darlin's arms and hug hym, saying ii've done well.

ok, maybe de part abt running his arms will be exempted, but ii do wan to do well in this A'level. it now matters alot to me. actualli, it's de only thing that matters now.

today, the third dae of sk0ol, ii have already signed the form of my A'level subjects so it's confirmed, ii'm takin these subjects. so ii can't like back out now. it's like confirmed!

and yes, finalli, darlin fang gone le.. at 2am.

ii seriosli think baleno is fcukin crazy.. retaining its workers till damn late and de welfare benefits are like so little? darlin worked for a yr le and now they den wan to increase his pay??

and aniwae he's goiin to quit le.. and find another job.

and lastly, ii wan sleep le!

nites ppl.

2006-12-31T16:50:00.000+08:00

just few more hours 2006 is goiin to end.

and ii'm nort feeliin ani happi.

although some things can be celebrated.

like,

my hw is close to finishiing.. =)

ii get to skip my aunt's party

huili and jw's relationship is finalli one yr..
after countless tymes of quarrellin. lols.

li, ii'm happi for u! jus try not to bully hym more in the upcomin yr k? aniwae meet up soon la!

but,
the sadness is alot.

next yr ii'm goiin to be a jc2.
ii'm not ready at all.

my life has been a torture ever since the start of March'06
ii've survived 9mths of being a tpjc yr 1 gal and am close to the brink of death.

imagine, beiin a jc2 gal.

ii can't.

not onli that, this realisation has dampened my mood in celebrating my christmas & new yr countdown.
ii jus wan sleep at home and forget the reality.

ii don wan 2006 to end. jus let me drown in my sorrows.

sonn jus msg me askin me to go over to pasir ris countdown dere but ii don wan.
not becos they are not fun.

but rather ii know ii'm not fun.

and truthfulli, speakiin from the bottom of my heart.
ii'm glad ii'm not goiin to meet darlin todae.

it's not dat ii don wanna celebrate the occasion wif hym.
it's jus ii'm not even in the mood to be part of the occasion.

so ii shall le hym indulge hymself wif fireworks.crowds.drinks wif hys frens

while hys poor gf is at home drinkiin hot chocolate.immersed in my homework.

sound pathetic?

ok maybe ii will also watch a movie wif my sis. she jus rented some amazin movies. lols.

she too isn't in the mood cos poor thing, she's sick. =X

thus she cancelled her appointment and decided to accompany her lonely sister.

haix.

but still t0 my darlin frens,
happy new yr!
enjoy..

w/o me today, u too can play till veh high. =)

2006-12-21T10:57:00.000+08:00

ii don noe wat to say.

this week has been a very tulmultous week.

ii've experienced heartbroken and happiness at the same tyme.

mondae 18/12
gt work! and after dat my pa sent me over to the chalet..

this tyme, the unit wasn't dat nice like de last yr.. it seems abit low-grade. it's like de air-con won't work. everything is like spoilin. broom.hangers and bla bla bla..

worst of all, it's rainin!

but still we managed to play like we did and behaved like small kids.
we played questionaire and numbers. =)

sounds lame and borin but dat tyme, mood was damn high!

after dat darlin sent mie hm.. in the rain somemore. thanks darlin, u noe ii love u! =)

tue 19/12
woke up super duper early by sueh li fone call.. took cab dere as it was rainin like super duper heavy.

went dere, ate breakfast cooked by nigel. a fantastic meal indeed. he's a good cook. ii wan marry someone like dat. and ii realised sl had de same idea. and she sae we shall share hym.. ii am de big one. LOLS.

after dat was abit boriin as dere was like nth to do.. so watched rob-b-hood. and after dat we went out to play in de rain!

quite fun. so when we are back, we are all wet.dirtyb ut at least we managed to adapt to the weather conditions.

nite tyme, we ere singiin our harts out b4 ii received de call.

it was my dad askiin mie to go back to work tml, he short-handed.. =(

den later while talkiin on the fone wif darlin, he drop me another bombshell.

two in one go. ii knew ii cried myself to sleep dat nite.

wed 20/12
took cab over to Gordon Warehse dere and work till 5plus like dat den went back to chalet.

feeliin damn moody. and so ii played the street fighter.. ii KO jr and sc lei.. so clever. ii first tyme play onli lo.. quite li hai. lols.

dat nite was the first nite ii felt lonely at hart and not lonely outside. lols.
ii was lookin at my hp all nite, prayiin it would rang the familiar tone or at least the msg tone.

but till now. at dis moment. it hasn't ring yet.

ii losiin confidence le..
u told mie ii'm ur lyfe.

and ytd u sae u are tired of ur lyfe.

the words on the screen was enough to break anione's hart.

de cold words u sae on mon.
ii keep trying to comfort myself saein u didn't mean it.

u could jus sae nicely, new yr ii find my frens k?
and not, "christmas ii pei u le, new yr cannot. ii wan go find my frens."

ii don't understand u animore.
ur actions and words have made u a totally different person

not the guy ii know and love.

is it my fault or urs?
or none.
jus that the passion and love in a yr plus relationship has sizzled out.

ii noe dat mine still hasn't.
cos u mean everything to mie.

jus a spoon droppin on the floor, ii can immediately think of u.
u are always constantly on my mind.

even my frens can see dat.
the hp nv left my side.

a slight sound ii would look at it, prayin hopin it was ur msg.

ppl did msg me. but not u.

de disappointment ii guess N-zire can see.
thanks for cheeriin me up! u guys are the best.

we belonged to different worlds.
ii can nv ever step into ur world.

ii don like it at all.
drinkin.gamblin.

but becos ii love u so much, it has become an acceptance. a norm thing.

and u don like my world too.

dey sae opposites attract. but when the opposites are realli veh far, the impact can be quite hard.

a simple example would be a movie.. ii would choose smth like happy feet and u would go for saw3. those gory scenes.
ii prefer my penguins.

but becos of love. u have accompany me watch countless of cartoons and ii'm still trying my best to wriggle out of those ghost/horror movies.

so can we find that love back?
or it's realli over.

love mie like u used to.
make me feel dat ii'm still the one u love.

ii tired.
waitin for ur msg.

and ii' still desperately hopiin dat we would be together once more.

Li,
sorri ii couldn't pei u todae.. ii make it up to u can?
cos ii'm realli tired and moodless. sorri ar.. and GO BEDOK 85 WIF US LA..
lols.

2006-12-15T13:50:00.000+08:00

yea!! chalet is comiin!

smiles.smiles.smiles. =))

and darlin is comiin on wed for bbq..

and sleep beside me.
ON THE FLOOR.

but maybe we not sleepiin.. dere are much better things to do...

ii doubt N-zire would sleep too..

and ii don have enuff sleep..
was talkiin on de fone wif my darl till 1am and ii woke up at 8.15am..

and he was still sleepiin like a pig..

side n0te to sharon & beng.

can we meet up to go bedok 85 dere and eat??
ii wan eat de noodle.satay.

cos ytd ii jus went dere!
but ii went to check de satay price for de chalet and ii nv eat.

so darlins, tag moi blog okie?
ii wan go eat.

and celebrate wif a small angie de choice cake. LOLS.

ytd ii walked for 200blocks!!

from bedok reservior to 500 plus dere!!!

was so tired. leg sore.

and we still carry 30bottles of 1.5ltr back to sonn's hse.

cos sheng siong cheaper. =)

by 20cents.

don think little of dese money
when one buys 30 bottles, it becomes $6.

can eat 6plates of chicken rice wor.

dat was sonn's exact words.
he lived up to hys reputation- HDB TAI TAI.

or was it HDB GONG GONG?
ii heard he gt promoted.

nth much.
as usual workin..
not njoyin at all

worrying abt my stack of hw..

oo, and ii missed my nitx.fateha..

can dey don't go orientation camp? and accompany me for breaks??

y u wana join councellor?? see wat it gt to??
nv listen to me as usual. =P

okie la.. break over.
back to workin.

=(

don worrie, u all are being missed by me.

and jj.xfx, ii nt emo!

2006-12-10T23:30:00.000+08:00

ii'm finalli bl0ggiin, but will be a short post.. shall let de pictures tell you abt de science centre thingy..

by rite gt de cute guy de, but too bad, ii show et.. he see le, he JEALOUS.
so ii deleted it away..

he say he nv, but ii noe best.. lols.

us at de science centre volunteer.. brammi looked so seductive!

where has my body gone to??

my lollipop!!

cl0se up of it.

volunteer tag, dis was anisa but ii took de pic. lols.

puzzle cart B.

so here are de science centre thingy..

and jus random th0ts.

ii feel so embarrassed.paiseh..

ii can't believe hawwei actualli g0 read my bl0g.

it was jus random th0ts and ii typed watever ii think 0f..

so hawwei, d0n feel this way! lols.

u like dat say ii more ps.

and u see my blog, tag la.. lols.

okie, ii wan sleep le..
and cuddle kkg.

think 0f my bf.

yang me 4eva.

and he told mie he LOVES me.. =)

and yet he doesn't wan watch happy feet wif mie.

i'm so so SAD.

2006-12-05T10:42:00.000+08:00

wow, it's so long since ii blog so ii better blog so as to let my readers know wat ii've been up too..

ii been workin.

WORKING.
everidae from 9 to 6plus.
mon to sat.

at my dad's office.

cos he needs help and so ii come lors.

and ii quit benetton.

only thing ii felt happy was, ii no need work wif jasmine animore!! =)

but ii missed de rest of my collegues and de fun tyme.. and like darlin said, " we are being paid to talk "

can't rmb wat ii did de rest of de days la.. jus now dat after workiin, ii either meet my darhlin frens or et. or go home watch tv marathon from 7pm to 11pm.

so my stack of hw is currently alot alot!

ii better start doiin.. but recent news tell me that my jc frens also haven start..

science centre volunteer was fun.. ii was like playing wif de kids all dae.. my work was to be in chrage of makin some craft called twirlers and ii met a cute guy.
age 12.

and so was de conversation btn us.

me: shuai ge
hym: [ look up ]
me: u nv make twirlers for ur gf ar?
hym: ii donno do for hu.. ii gt 6.
me: wat??

ii translate to anisa hu was with mie and she told mie to tease hym..

me: can ii be ur 7 gf?
hym: u how old?
me: 14ys old. LOLS.
hym: u older dan me by 2yrs lei..
me: ii haven bdae so 13..
hym: um.. [ and walked off ]

after awhile, he came back..
hym: u wait till ii 20ys old, ii come find you..

hahaha.. damn cute la..he's malaysian, come here for hys graduation trip..

okie.. now continue workiin..

sometymes i wonder de care and concern u shown for me is it realli dere?
ii can't feel anithing at all..
ii can sense de concern u have for ur frens. de worries.. but me?

ii'm always placed 2nd.. AFTER THEM.

a week, u come find me how mani tymes, dem how mani?
after work/sk0ol, de first person that comes into ur mind is jus hawwwei. it's nv once mie.
u won't auto meet mie.. ii have to ask for ur schedule.

do u noe how much it hurts?
u don noe where ii am always.
u don bother to ask mie.
am ii jus an non-existence thing in ur lyfe or de girl u supposedly love?

ii'm tired thinkiin of all these things.
u don noe how ii feel each tyme.
u don noe how much ii love you.

u love me.
but it's always much lesser dan de love ii haf for u.

u are my lyfe.
de reason ii smile.

and now u are the reason ii cry.